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It didn’t have a top on it. I mean it looked like it was maybe cut off, no maybe the top tab pieces were just folded in. I didn’t know. I couldn’t really see. Gerard was holding it up pretty high since he was standing on the chair still. He frowned a little as he peeked inside…

“What's in it Gerard?” I ask stretching up on my tip toes trying to peek. Which was pretty ridiculous on my part. I mean the box was a good six, seven inches over my head still…

Gerard frowned and reached in the box and when he pulled his hand out he was a holding a bright purple lacey thong. He kinda made a face at me like ‘what's this?- how come I've never seen you in this before?’

“Those aren’t mine!” I gasp and he drops them back in the box and makes a face.

“I'm guessing these aren’t either then?” He says pulling out a red and white polk-a-dot pair.

“Oh my god.” I say shutting my eyes suddenly feeling very, very sick…

“Here take this.” Gerard says handing me the box from up on the chair. I peek inside it as I take it from him. It was full of women’s underwear… Some papers at the bottom of it too, But the underwear, oh my god. It was all different women’s too. I mean you tell they were all different sizes… I suddenly had a flash of my missing panties from the strip club. But I wasn’t about to dig through the box and check for them. I tossed the box to the floor in disgust… There are some things you're better off not knowing…

I turned my attention back to Gerard. He pulled out a shoe box now. It rattled a little. He opened it up and leant it forward so I could see too… It was filled with pill bottles.


“Oh Will.” I sigh a little as Gerard hands it to me. I looked at the labels. A few were real old… Some were empty. When I looked back up Gerard was frowning at me. “What?” I ask raising my eyebrows up at him. I mean I knew what was up… He didn’t like Will… Yes. I know that. ‘Its called compassion Gerard!’ I wanted to scream at him.

“Nothing.” He says turning his back to me a little. “There's one more thing in here.” He says stretching a little to reach it…

It was another brown cardboard box. I could see the markings on the outside right away… It had been through the mail… It was my box!

Gerard was holding my box!

I felt a rush of nervousness pass through me as he jumped down off the chair. I leant over and looked at it as he clutched it tightly. It was definitely my box… I mean it had my name and address on the top.

“Open it Gerard!” I say elbowing him a little… I mean what the fuck! He was just standing there…

“You sure?” He says stalling a little. “Cause once we do Elle…” He stammers.

“Fuck Gerard it’s not like a bomb or something.” I say a little annoyed. “It’s already been opened once.” I say nodding towards the torn tape on it.

“Well then maybe Will took out whatever was in it already.” Gerard says and I frown.

“Why do you have to be so negative?” I say a little hurt.

“I'm just being realistic.” He says shaking his head a little.

“Fuck I wish Bob was here.” I mutter under my breath as he reached like he was gonna open the box and he paused.

“What?” He says making a face at me… Shit. I think he heard me…

“What?” I repeat back.

“Bob?” He says a little harshly and I just looked at him blankly. “You wish Bob was here instead of me?” He says raising his voice slightly.

“No!” I cry out.

“I heard you.” He says and I frown.

“I never said ‘instead’.” I say firmly.

“But you wished he was here.” Gerard points out to me.

“Well yeah.” I say a little annoyed now.

“That’s fucked Elle.” He says like I hurt him somehow.

“Fucked how?” I ask and he just looked at me like I should know. “Cause Bob always says something positive?” I say and he didn’t say anything. “Cause Bob tells me things are gonna be okay?” I ask rhetorically. “Cause Bob wouldn't say ‘oh the box is gonna be empty and you're gonna be left heartbroken once again’?” I say raising my voice up a little in frustration.

“I just don’t want you to get your hopes up and be crushed baby.” Gerard says and I sigh looking in his eyes… He really meant it… He loves me. And I love him.

“I'm not gonna be crushed.” I say and he presses his lips together a little.

“Elle I know how much having a family means to you.” He says and I nod.

“It does.” I say my eyes welling up a little. “And I do.” I say and he looked at me a little confused. “I do have a family Gerard… you” I say holding my finger up with his ring and his face softened as he pulled my hand to his mouth and kissed it.

“Aw baby.” He sighed a little. It was silent for a moment… “All right I hope you're not disappointed.” He says kissing my hand again.

“Well maybe you should open the box and then we’ll know wont we.” I say as he drops my hand from his…

He opened the box slowly and we both peeked inside.

“Holy shit!” I cry out in shock. “Its…It’s bow-bow!” I cry out pulling my old teddy bear from the box and hugging him tightly to my chest. Gerard just stood there frozen for a second. He looked at me, then at the box.

“There's nothing else in it.” He says shaking the box upside down a little. He frowned as he looked at the address labels…

“Gerard! Its my teddy bear! bow-bow!” I say smiling widely as I snuggled bow-bow up to my cheek.

“Bow-bow?” Gerard says hesitantly looking over at me. He seemed pissed there was nothing else in the box. Fuck he was kinda right… whatever else was in the box Will must’ve taken… I would’ve been more upset but bow-bow!!! My teddy bear! I was so excited I could hardly contain myself.

“Yeah cause he's got a bow, see?” I say pointing to his little polk-a-dot bow tie.

“Uh yeah I see it.” He says a little annoyed.

“Aw bow-bow.” I sigh looking at him adoringly.

“Well at least your not crushed.” Gerard kinda laughs as he shook the box upside again. Just then Mr. Cutter appeared in the doorway.

“Find what you were looking for?” He says coldly.

“Uh yeah.” I say and I nod for Gerard to pick up the boxes. He made a face but reluctantly did… I mean I don’t know what his problem is sometimes! Did he think I was gonna leave that box of pills behind for his dad to find? Will was already in so much trouble… mostly cause of me… keeping his secrets from his dad? -well that was the least I could do for him.

Gerard put the boxes in the back seat of Rays car. I held bow-bow on my lap as we drove back to my house.... … Fuck I hope Bob got enough food for everyone, I'm starving… That half of a bagel I had for breakfast just wasn’t cutting it…

“So umm you like hyphens huh?” Gerard says as we drove.

“What?” I laugh a little.

“Well you know, Gus-Gus, bow-bow…” He says and I smile.

“Mmm Gee-Gee! “ I tease him and he laughs.

“Please don’t call me that!” He says tossing his head back a little and his hair swung down into his eyes a little.

“Fine.” I sigh squeezing my bear again…Gerard looked over and smiled at me. “You wanna hug him?” I ask and he laughs.

“Naw baby.” He says and I nudge him a little.

“Come on give him a little hug.” I say pressing bow-bow up against Gerard side.

“Stop Elle! I'm driving!” He laughs.

“You don’t like my bear.” I pretend to pout.

“Sure I do.” He teases me back.

“So you’ll hug him?” I say and he laughs.

“Maybe later.” He says and I smile.

“That’s all right… We’ve got all night.” I say setting bow-bow back onto my lap.

“What?” Gerard chuckles.

“Bow-bows gonna sleep with us!” I tell him and he laughs.

“Elle you sure you want your teddy bear to see that…?” He says and I was about to ask ‘see what?’ But I could tell by the way he was grinning where his mind was.

“Aw, maybe not.” I tell him. “Mmm maybe I should blindfold him?” I say and Gerard laughs.

“Maybe I should blindfold you!” He says and I smile.

“I dare ya Gerard.” I say and he grins… I found myself watching him adoringly the rest of the ride home, which was rather quick. I mean Will didn’t live that far from me. I mean you could’ve walked… Hmmm, which was probably what Will was doing… Since I mean I’d never saw his car by my house, not ever…

“Fuck it looks like Lia's here.” Gerard says nodding to her car in the driveway as we pulled in behind her.

”Gerard.” I sigh a little and he just looked at me. “Can’t you just try?” I ask him and he pressed his lips together a little. “Please… for bow-bow.” I say pouting a little as I held my precious bear up.

“I’ll try.” He says and I smile. “But for you, not bow-bow.” He adds leaning over and kissing my lips lightly before opening his door. “But if she starts talking shit again Elle.” He says and I bite my lip a little.

“Come on, lets just go in okay?” I say and he nods as he picks up the boxes from Rays backseat and carries them to the door.

“Oooh let me get that for you.” I say and he smiles as I open the door for him.

“Don’t be looking at my ass.” He laughs as he walks past me into the house.

“Mmm how bout touch?” I tease him back as I reach over and grab his ass. His hands were full with the boxes and he couldn’t really stop me.

“Elle!” He cries out as he jumped forward a little.

“What?” I say innocently as I do it again.

“Stop!” He cries out as he jumps forward again, this time stumbling a little on the hallway rug and losing his balance slightly and he drops the fucking boxes, spilling the underwear out all over my front hall… “Aw fuck!” He mumbles looking down at it.

“What the hell is this?” Ray says stepping into the hallway looking at the mess. Then Bob appeared and Lia was right behind him… Wait Lia and Bob? Fuck… I hope they're not getting back together…

“This” Gerard says gesturing to the floor. “This is Wills.” He says and Ray and Bob both kinda frown.

“Oh my god those are mine!” Lia gasps picking up a pair of black underwear from the pile on the floor. She kinda looked over at me like what the hell…”And those are Crystals!” She says even more outraged.

“Oh God.” I say feeling myself getting sick again.

“And you brought them here cause…?” Ray says looking over at Gerard.

“Ask Elle.” Gerard shrugs.

“Just cause.” I say huffily kneeling down on the floor and picking the rest of them up and shoving them back into the box on top of the papers as they all stared. I mean what the fuck… I'm not going through this with him again… “What? I'm gonna throw them out!” I say rolling my eyes a little as they all frowned at me. “It’s not like I'm gonna keep them.” I whine.

“It’s uhh quite a collection.” Bob says and I frown.

“So that’s all you found man?” Ray asks and Gerard nods.

“Yeah apparently he likes stealing women’s underwear and umm teddy bears.” He says laughing a little.

“Teddy bears?” Ray repeats back and Gerard nods.

“Yeah he stole Elles teddy bear.” Gerard says and they all look over at me again.

“Holy shit that’s Bow-bow!” Lia cries out her jaw dropping open in disbelief.

“I know isn’t it great.” I say hugging him against me as I stood up. I put the box on the floor by the door. I’ll just take it out next time I bring the trash out…

“Elle where the hell did you get him from?” Lia says totally shocked.

“Someone mailed him to me.” I tell her and Gerard makes a face.

“No Elle, Will took him.” He says and now I make a face.

“No he didn’t!” I argue and Gerard nods. “Gerard the last time I saw this bear was like 10 years ago.” I say and his face dropped a little.

“Why didn’t you say that sooner?” He says stepping towards me. Fuck… He thought Will took him… Like he took my underwear…

“I didn’t know I had to.” I defend myself. “I mean bow-bows my old bear! Did you think I had a teddy bear still?” I say and he nodded a little. “Gerard!” I laugh.

“Well Elle, that’s not that unreasonable of a conclusion.” Ray says and I make a face.

“Why cause I'm childish?” I say a little defensively.

“No cause…” Ray stammers a little. Which was rare for him. “Well Lia use to have a teddy bear, up until a few months ago...” He says and Lia looks down at the floor… He meant Teddy…

“Yeah but he wasn’t the playing kind.” I say and Ray makes a face.

“What does that mean?” He asks and I look down too.

“Elle give me the bear.” Gerard says holding his hand out.

“Why?” I ask nervously.

“Just gimme.” He says and I panic…I could tell by the tone in his voice it wasn’t cause he wanted to hug him…

He was gonna cut him open… I just knew it…