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I waved my hand around until I got the teachers attention.

“What is it Elle?” She sighed a little exasperatedly at me.

“Can I go to the bathroom?” I ask her and she frowns as she looks up at the clock. “I really gotta go.” I say desperately.

“The bells about to ring.” She says getting up from her desk and erasing the board.

“I know but.” I sigh anxiously… There was only a few minutes left in class now. Mikey looked over smugly at me…She wasn’t gonna let me go early. It was obvious… “But Mrs. J.” I stammered.

“Elle.” She says shaking her head no.

“Why not!” I protest.

“Why not?” She laughs. “You sat here talking half the class.” She tells me and I just looked at her blankly.

“Yeah but I really have to go.” I tell her.

“You’ll have plenty of time before your next class.” She says and I frown…

“Yeah but I have to go to the nurses office first.” I lie.

“What for Elle?” She says and I blurt out the first thing that came to mind.

“I need to borrow a tampon.” I say rather loudly and Mikey started coughing, actually choking was more like it. I should've just shut up at that point. I mean I don’t know how I came up with that on the spot like that but I did. I should've just left it alone, but no… I keep talking. “That’s what I was whispering to Mikey about before.” I say and I can hear Laura giggle.

“You were asking Mikey Way if you could borrow a tampon?” She says and I nod as I look over at him. Poor guy must’ve turned like five shades of red by this point. I don’t know if it was from him choking before or what…

“Well I was asking him to ask Laura.” I say and now she shoots me a look like please don’t include me in this!

“You know what Elle just go okay.” Mrs. J says a little fed up at this point. “But I'm not giving you a hall pass, you get stopped-!” She says throwing her hands up in the air and I nod as I grab my bag off the floor. I tried to wave by to Mikey but he wouldn’t look at me…

I dashed out the math room, unsure of where I was even gonna go… I mean I know Gerard is in gym now… So there's no way I'm going in that direction…

And he knows I'm suppose to be in social studies next…And he's right across the hall in math with Bob… fuck… I decided to go back down the hallway to where the English classrooms were. There was a payphone on the wall by the door. I figured I’d better call the insurance company now that I have a few minutes…

The guy on the phone was real nice and all…Said they were gonna send someone out to take a look at the damage. I told him I wasn’t home but he said that was okay. That someone’s just gonna come and take some pictures and then they’ll send someone else to do an estimate. He said the repairs wouldn’t take more then a few weeks depending on the damage and I should call him and let him know where I was gonna be staying. He started saying something about hotel reimbursement but then the first bell rang and I told him I had to go and I’d call him later…

I hung up and peeked around the hallway. It was almost empty now… No sign of Gerard… or Bob… I quickly ran down the hall and ducked into class just as the bell rang.

“You just missed Gerard.” Ray says to me as I sat down and I shrugged and didn’t answer him… I was kinda relieved in a way… But I don’t know… I don’t know why I was avoiding him.

I mean I loved him. I loved him so much it hurt… But there was just this nagging voice inside my head filling me with doubts… I mean Mikey said he was up all night pacing. Pacing about what? Was he angry with me? Is that why he wants to see me so badly so he could tell me off? Oh god I think I would just die!

Unless maybe he's sorry… But still… I don’t know. I tried to put the thoughts out of my mind and focus instead on the assignment on the board…

“Hey Ray what’d ya put for-“ I started to ask him. I was gonna ask him what he put for the first one but I changed my mind. “You know what never mind.” I say turning my eyes back to my paper.

“You want the answers.” He says holding out his paper for me to copy them I guess.

“No.” I say shrugging as I stared at my blank paper.

“They're right.” He says and I laugh.

“You sure about that.” I say snidely and I look over and he's frowning.

“What's that suppose to mean?” He says and I shrug.

“Nothing just that you’ve been on kinda a wrong answer streak.” I say and he makes a face at me. “You know first about my bear-“ I say and he shakes his head a little.

“I said I wasn’t sure about that.” He backtracks a little.

“And then about the fire.” I say and he frowns. “It wasn’t intentional or even accidental like this last one, it was electrical.” I say and he makes a face at me.

“What last one?” He says a little confused.

“What?” I reply and he frowns.

“I asked you first.” He says and I found myself confused again…

“Well I asked my neighbor!” I whisper harshly at him as Mr. Richards started the lesson. “He said it was electrical, some wires in the garage.” I say and Ray kinda looked at me like he didn’t believe me. I nodded insistently and he shrugged like whatever. But I knew it was killing him. He hated being wrong…

I didn’t really talk to him the rest of the class. Just kinda kept my head down pretending to take notes… I was trying to come up with a way out of here early too… I mean I had to. I couldn’t face Gerard.

I had decided to wait until class was almost over and give Mr. Richards the same tampon excuse… I mean what's he gonna do? Challenge me on it? Ask for proof?

There was maybe 10 minutes left now… I was just about to get up when Mr. Samuel comes by the doorway. He waved Mr. Richards over. He was saying something to him and they were both looking at me… Ray seemed to notice it too.

“What's going on Elle?” He leans over and whispers at me and I shrug.

“I'm not sure.” I say and Mr. Samuel motions for me to get up.

”Elle.” He says like I should go with him. I didn’t move.

“Its only going to take a minute.” He says and I sigh.

“You know I'm suppose to go to lunch next.” I say and Mr. S didn’t answer me, just kinda looked me over a little. It was weird... I reached for my bag and looked over at Ray.

“Uh you want us to meet you at your house Elle?” Ray says shifting his eyes between me and Mr. Samuel… Ray didn’t trust Mr. Samuel and he didn’t like the fact that I was going off with him, that much was obvious…

“At my house?” I say a little confused and it’s at this point I realize Ray didn’t know it practically burnt down… I mean I didn’t tell him. I didn’t tell Mikey…fuck… I bet Gerard doesn’t even know yet… Unless Frankie told him…Aw fuck! I wonder else Frankie’s gonna tell him…

“Uh no I'm gonna eat in the cafeteria today.” I tell Ray and he looks at me like he doesn’t believe it. “I am.” I insist and Ray shrugs like if you say so.

“Miss Waller.” Mr. Samuel says harshly and I looked at him like what the hell? I mean he never talks to me like that…

“Uh we’ll wait for you by the guidance office.” Ray says frowning a little and I shrugged and followed Mr. S out…

“What's up?” I ask as went down the hall and he didn’t answer me. Just gave me a hard kinda stare… It was kinda freaking me out. I mean something was up. And he seemed to be pissed with me, but I'm not sure why. I didn’t do anything…

We walk into the guidance office and there's two cops kinda standing in the corner talking to the secretary lady… I kinda did a double take as we went by. I mean there's a usually one cop in the school… not two…

And one of them had one of those notebooks out… the I'm sorry you're dead notebooks…I felt a chill go up my spine as Mr. Samuel shut his office door and pulled the cord on the blinds causing them to come crashing down, darkening the room slightly... I was gonna ask him what was up with the cops but I didn’t get a chance.

Mr. Samuel just reached over and grabbed me by the shoulders and threw me up against the wall roughly. Pressing his body against mine. Pinning me helplessly under him and I freaked.

“What the hell are you doing!” I cried out loudly as I wriggled to get away from him.

“Look at me.” He says grabbing my face and turning it towards his roughly like Paul always use to do to me.

“Stop!” I yell out, but it was no use he was ten times stronger then me…He turned my face to his and I could feel his breath on my face. His body weight pressed against me… I felt myself being consumed in a feeling of helplessness, of fear…

I turned my eyes on to his. And that when I saw he wasn’t looking in my eyes… he was looking at them… pretty intently too…

“I asked you if you were in the woods!” He says as he studied them.

“What?” I gasped a little and he kinda shook me in frustration.

“What were you doing in the woods!” He says angrily and I could feel the tears on my cheeks all of a sudden which was weird cause I didn’t realize I was crying…

“Nothing.” I say and now I realize I was shaking too… Mr. Samuel must’ve noticed it too cause he backed off slightly.

“Were you in the woods with Oliver Hammond Elle.” Mr. Samuel says and I just looked at him and then at the door. He was kinda blocking it… I mean I couldn’t walk out with out going past him… And he looked stressed. I mean he wasn’t wearing his suit coat and he had his sleeves rolled up still… But his face is what freaked me out the most. I mean he had this look in his eye that was like pure desperation… It scared me…

“I um..” I stammered a little. I had to get out of here… My mind suddenly flashed to the two cops outside the doorway. I mean I could scream if I have to… I'm sure they could hear me if I scream loud enough.

“Don’t fucking lie to me!” Mr. S says and he stepped towards me. I stepped back nervously. Mr. S had never cursed at me before…

“Touch me again and I’ll scream.” I tell him and he froze for a second and just looked at me. It was silent for a few seconds before Mr. S finally spoke.

“Elle were you huffing with Oliver in the woods.” He says lowering his voice down and I widened my eyes a little at him.

“No!” I say a little outraged.

“Are you telling the truth?” He says to me and I frown.

“Yes I'm telling the truth you can even ask Oliver.” I say a little annoyed. I mean what the fuck? He's this upset cause he thinks I was huffing in the woods? Like it’s that big of a deal! Even if I was huffing I don’t see how it’s any of his business… I was gonna tell him that too. Tell him to go fuck himself. But I didn’t… Not after he told me-

“Elle, Oliver Hammond is dead.”