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I guess that’s how we fell asleep cause the next thing I know its morning… At least that’s what Mikey was yelling as he came down the stairs…

“Dude get the hell up all ready.” Mikey’s voice echoed out as the footsteps grew louder…and closer…

I could feel Gerard lying on top of me still. He shifted slightly and I peeked my eyes open a little. It was light out, although you could barely tell. I mean Gerard's window was so fucking small, but there was one little stream of light coming in, and just my luck it was hitting me right in the face! I squeezed my eyes back shut and snuggled up a little more under Gerard. I mean he showed no signs of getting up for school and if he wasn’t going then I wasn’t either…

“Come on man.” Mikey prodded him once again and Gerard didn’t respond at all… He was lying completely motionless on top of me, his faced nuzzled in my neck. I could feel him breathing slowly and steadily in my ear…He wasn’t getting up…”fuck.” Mikey grumbled a little and then turned his efforts to me. “Elle come on its after seven all ready.” He whines a little.

“Mmmm go away.” I whine at him a little annoyed as I opened one eye and glared at him the best I could through it... I mean what the fuck does Mikey care if we go to school or not? Maybe he doesn’t realize what time we came in last night…

“Fuck!” Mikey cries out and he kicks the bed in frustration and I felt Gerard tense up a little…

“Get the fuck out of here Mikey.” Gerard grumbled still obviously not all the way awake yet as he shifted once more. This time rolling over slightly off of me, pulling the blankets with him. Which wouldn’t have been such a big deal except for the fact I wasn’t wearing anything but my underwear. I immediately reached for them back, but Gerard had rolled over and pulled them up over his head and when I tugged for them, he tugged back, unwilling to give them up…

“Gerard!” I kinda gasped a little as I sat up frantically trying to find something to cover myself with and I heard Mikey snicker…

“Nice tattoo Elle.” Mikey kinda chuckled, and it was like time froze for an instant…

I guess it clicked in Gerard's head what he did, you know, pulling the blankets off of me like that... I didn’t even have a chance to blink, let alone respond to Mikey cause suddenly Gerard was wide-awake. It all just happened so fast… As I was reaching for the blanket back, Gerard just leapt up out of the bed tackling poor Mikey right to the floor.

“Gerard! No!’ I cried out like an automatic reaction but he just ignored me… Mikey let a high pitched shriek as they fell to the floor too. I mean I guess this is what they do, I don’t know…

I knew it was no use to try to stop them and honestly I was just too tired still to really care. I kinda just stepped around them wrestling on the floor and pulled out a sweater and a pair of jeans from one of my shopping bags. And as I was slipping the sweater on over my head I just got this like massive pounding in the side of my head…It was so sharp that I reached up and clutched the side of my head and actually stumbled back a little in pain…

“Gerard.” I called his name a little urgently and he stopped choking Mikey for a second and looked over at me, his eyes full of concern.

“You okay?” He says and as soon as he said it the pain was gone…

“Uh yeah, you got like an aspirin or something? My head’s just like fucking pounding.” I say and he nodded a little as he stood up releasing Mikey…

“Yeah I’ll get you something baby.” He says giving Mikey one more kick before heading up the stairs…

“You okay there Mikey?” I ask him once Gerard was gone. He was like totally fucking out of breath and completely disheveled… Why they think this is fun is beyond me…

“Yeah, he really fucking hit me hard.” Mikey groans a little rubbing his ribs slightly…

“You know where I got that tattoo from Mikey?” I ask him turning my back to him and pulling my brush out of my purse.

“What?” Mikey says sounding a little confused.

“From Brutus.” I tell him keeping my back to him, but I could see his reflection in the mirror as I brushed my hair slowly…

“I didn’t…know that” Mikey says a little apologetically and I shrugged.

“Yeah I know that’s why I'm telling you.” I say and he just looked at me for a moment and didn’t say anything…

“Elle did you ever think of like getting it removed?” He says and I wrinkled my face a little.

“Removed?” I repeat back like he had to be crazy.

“Yeah removed or like covered up or something.” He suggests and I shook my head a little lost.

“Why would I do that Mikey?” I ask him and he widened his eyes a little at me.

“Cause uh…you know. I mean…” He stammered a little.

“That’d be like lying.” I tell him and now he's the one making a face at me.

“Lying?” He repeats back.

“Yeah like pretending it never happened.” I try to explain and he frowned.

“Elle you cant just carry that around.” Mikey says lowering his voice a little and I rolled my eyes at him.

“Mikey its my burden to bear, who else is gonna carry it.” I tell him and he looked like he was gonna say something else but changed his mind once he heard Gerard's footsteps on the stairs…

“Carry what?” Gerard says and Mikey just shrugged so Gerard turned to me. I didn’t want to tell him what we were talking about either so I just shifted my eyes around the room a little. “What the bags?” Gerard says gesturing at all the crap I bought yesterday. “Aw Elle just leave em.” He says and I shook my head a little as I went to pick one up.

“No I need them. I don’t know why you brought them all in last night.” I tell him and he laughed.

“Well they were all gonna have to come in at some point.” He says and I frowned.

“Gerard I'm not staying here. I only did last night cause- you know.“ I shrug a little as I gathered up the rest of the bags..

“Uh no. You are staying here.” Gerard say firmly as he snatched the bags back from me and brusquely tossed them back on to the floor.

“Gerard!” I cried out a little outraged and I guess Mikey took it as his cue to leave, cause he just fucking bolted out of there mumbling something about waiting for us upstairs…

“Elle what do you mean you're not staying here huh?” Gerard says as he sat on the edge of the bed lacing up his boots.

“It’s not that I don’t want to Gerard. I just can’t.” I try to explain and he frowned a little. “I mean look what just happened you know?” I tell him and he motions for me to come over to him so I do.

“Elle.” He sighs my name a little as he wrapped his hands around my waist. He was still sitting on the edge of the bed and I was standing in front of him looking down at his beautiful face. “What Mikey said.” He starts to say and I silenced him with my finger.

“Its not that Gerard.” I tell him and he just looked up at me like he was asking then what. “I mean wouldn’t you rather we be in the hotel…alone…” I add and he kinda smiled as I ran my hands playfully through his hair. “Then we wouldn’t have to worry about making too much noise, like last night.” I tell him and he grinned.

“Last night?” He kinda chuckled. “Did I miss something last night?” He teases me.

“Gerard!” I laughed. He was so bad sometimes. “I mean like how much noise we made coming in last night so late.” I tell him and he shrugged.

“I don’t think that bothered anybody.” He says and I shook my head is disagreement.

“You fucking went up and down the stairs like a hundred times! I'm sure they all heard you.” I insist and he raised his eyebrow up at me.

“How do you know how many times I went up and down?” He challenges me. “I thought you were sleeping?” He says and I tried not to smile.

“I was.” I tell him and he laughed.

“Fucking liar! You were up you should've helped carry the bags!” He teases me as he slid up his hand up my sweater to tickle me and I cringed a little.

“Stop!” I cried out laughing myself now as he pulled me on to his lap. “I WAS sleeping! –Kinda!” I insist and he released his grip on me a little.

“Aw baby.” He sighed a little looking me sitting on his lap…His voice was strong, still filled with so much emotion still from last night. But I just couldn’t go back to that…I didn’t want to…

“I love you Gerard.” I blurt out and he smiled.

“I love you too honey.” He replies and I giggled thinking of Bob.

“Why do you laugh when I call you that?” He asks me as I stood up off his lap and started picking my bags back up from the floor.

“I dunno.” I shrug. “Makes me think of my Bobby.” I tell him and he smirked a little.

“hmph. wont be saying that anymore then.” Gerard kinda says under his breath and I laughed. He was such a fucking fool sometimes, teasing me like that, like it bothered him me thinking of Bob or something…

“Oh Gerard stop!” I roll my eyes at him as Mikey appeared at the top of the steps calling down to see if we were ready yet…

I guess we were gonna stop and pick Frankie up or something, I don’t know. Gerard was driving like always. I had loaded back up my bags into the truck and Gerard didn’t say anything so I guess that meant we were gonna be staying at the hotel tonight…

I was telling Mikey about what happened at the funeral, about my ‘dad’ and Lia and Eric and what not as we drove. I don’t think Gerard really wanted me getting Mikey involved with all the crap that was my life. But I had promised Mikey to keep him informed and that’s what I was doing. I had never broken a promise before in my life and I wasn’t about to…

“So this Nick Walker guys your dad?” Mikey asks and I shrugged.

“Seems that way.” I tell him and he nods. “But I don’t think he really wants anything to do with me.” I add and Mikey kinda made a face at me.

“I dunno Elle, I guess you’ll see when he writes you back.” Mikey says and it just hit me. I mean I totally forgot that I had written him that letter last week… He must've gotten it by now… fuck…

“Wait you knew about that?” Gerard says turning in his seat and kinda glaring at Mikey…

“Uhhh.” Mikey stammered a little not sure of what to say.

“What the fuck did it say Elle?” Gerard kinda growled over me and I swallowed a little nervously as he shifted his eyes between me and Mikey as he drove.

“It didn’t say anything Gerard!” I tell him quickly trying to keep him calm but it didn’t seem to be working so well…

“So you sent him a blank piece of paper.” He says and I smiled, he frowned.

“No Gee.” I tell him and he smiled a little himself now. “It just said like ‘who are you’ -that’s all.” I tell him like it was no big deal…

“And you fucking helped her with this?” He says shooting Mikey a look that meant a certain ass kicking for Mikey once the truck stopped.

“No!” Mikey cried out and looked over at me like I better fix this or something…

“He really didn’t Gerard!” I insist and Gerard kinda shifted his eyes between us like he wasn’t sure if he believed it or not.

“Then who did?” He asks and I frowned.

“What?” I say a little confused.

“Some one helped you Elle.” He says and I pressed my lips together tightly and looked at him… How did he know someone helped me? “I know you had help.” He insists and I frowned a little.

“You saying I'm too stupid to write a letter by myself?” I say defensively.

“No I'm saying I know you.” He tells me. “And the envelope was sealed, and you don’t fucking…lick envelopes.” He says trying to wave his finger at me ,and light a cigarette, and watch the road -all at the same time… “So who the fuck helped you cause I'm gonna kick their ass.” He says and I tried not to smile as we pulled up in front of Frankie’s house… Fuck I don’t lick envelopes… he knew me too well…

“Gerard just let it go, it doesn’t matter any more.” I kinda laughed as Frankie came towards the truck and got in.

“Naw, It matters. Now fucking answer me.” Gerard demands.

“Bite me.” I reply and Gerard sorta smiled.

“What a fucking mouth on you.” He says and I shrugged.

“Dude, what’s going on?” Frankie nudges Mikey a little eagerly.

“Gerard's pissed.” Mikey replied plainly and Frankie grinned and leant forward in his seat a little to get a better view of us fighting I suppose, I don’t really know. He really fucking enjoyed me getting in trouble though that was for sure…

“What’dya do Elle?” Frankie kinda laughed and I rolled my eyes a little.

“I didn’t do anything.” I declare. “He's pissed cause somebody helped me with the letter I sent that day.” I say hoping Frankie would take the hint and shut the fuck up. But I either I stressed the wrong words or Frankie got nervous or maybe he just didn’t understand. I don’t know cause he just blurts out-

“I didn’t know what the fuck it was!” He says and Gerard glared over at him.

“You?!” He says the venom dripping from his voice now.

“She said stick out your tongue, so I did.” Frankie tries to explain but it wasn’t doing him any good…

“What are you a fucking dog?” Gerard starts in on him and I sighed a little. “Some one says fucking stick out your tongue and you do it?” He demands.

“Gerard please.” I say loudly getting a little upset myself now… I mean I just had too many things still going on in my head. I couldn’t fucking listen to them bickering anymore. I rubbed the side of my head and Gerard reached over and squeezed my thigh slightly.

“Your head still bothering you?” He asked and I shrugged. I mean it sorta was but I didn’t want to bother him with it...

“Hey you got that chocolate bar?” I ask and his face went totally blank.

“What?” He replies so I repeat it.

“The chocolate bar you got me yesterday can I have it?” I ask holding my hand out and he bit his lip a little. “I know you bought it. I saw you.” I tell him and he smiled.

“Yeah but you were sleeping.” He says and I nodded.

“Yeah I know that’s why I want it now.” I tell him as I continued to hold my hand out towards him.

“Well I ate it.” He says and his words totally crushed me.

“You what?” I said weakly and he smiled.

“Aw baby.” He said like it amused him how hurt I was…”I'm sorry.” He says and I feel my eyes welling up with tears and I didn’t know why… I just get too emotional sometimes… I think its from bottling up so much big stuff all the time that these little things just set me off… “Elle don’t cry.” He says and I bit my lip a little.

“I'm not.” I tell him trying to hold back my tears as I turned and looked out the window, we were almost at the school now…

“Elle, baby I’ll get you another one at lunch okay?” He says apologetically squeezing my leg again and I turn and face him.

“Its all right Gerard. I’ll just ask Bob, he always has chocolate for me.” I tell him and he seemed to tense up a little.

“Bob.” Gerard kinda smirked.

“Yeah Bob. You know my husband?” I teased him.

“Yeah Elle I know he's you're fucking husband.” Gerard says a little loudly and I just looked at him a little nervously… I don’t know why he was getting loud all of a sudden… I figured he was maybe still pissed at the whole Frankie/envelope thing. Or maybe it was cause I almost burst into tears over him eating my candy bar… Fuck. I really got to keep it together. If not for me, for him… I couldn’t stand seeing him upset cause of me…

“Soooo.” I say trying to sound upbeat. “I'm sure Bob has chocolate for me.” I repeat. “I mean he's never let me down you know?” I add and Gerard just kinda glanced over at me. “So I’ll be fine today, once I see my husband.” I tell him nodding a little. Trying my best to convince him that I was going to be okay...But I don’t know if he was buying it or not…

“Stop calling him that.” Gerard says roughly as we pulled into the schools parking lot…Fuck. He was seriously stressed still and it seemed the more I talked the more upset I was making him but I didn’t know why…

“Why the hell not?” I say glancing out the window at Bob… He was walking with …ugh fucking Jessica! What the hell is he doing with her? I think maybe he gave her a ride to school cause they were walking down the center of the aisle together towards the school kinda laughing, ”I mean that’s what he is- my husband.” I add and Gerard kinda smirked a little as he turned down the aisle driving straight towards them.

“Yeah well not for much longer.” He says harshly and we seemed to be picking up speed now as we headed towards him with no sign of slowing down...