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I don’t know if Gerard was spacing out or lost in a thought or what- cause he was clenching the steering wheel so determinedly as we barreled towards Bob.

“Gerard!” I gasped as we continued to speed directly towards Bob and he suddenly just seemed to snap out of it when I called his name. He sorta clenched the steering wheel a little tighter and swerved the truck a little as he slammed down on the brakes. I felt myself fall forward towards the dashboard and then the seat belt yanked me back roughly, which did nothing to help my headache…

“What the fuck man!” Frankie cried out loudly. I guess he didn’t put his belt on cause he fell pretty hard forward smacking into the back of my seat no less. Bob and Jessica just kept walking... totally oblivious to the fact that they were almost run over...

“Shit, the fucking brakes locked up.” Gerard scoffed a little as he pulled into an empty spot near the door.

“Uh sure bro.” Mikey kinda snickered and Gerard shot him a nasty look as he opened the door to get out.

“Elle, I don’t want you fucking driving anywhere until I take a look at them.” He says and I couldn’t help but laugh.

“Me? Drive?” I say as he goes to put my keys in his pocket. “Maybe you haven’t noticed Gerard, but uh, I never get to drive anywhere anymore.” I tell him and he sorta smiled at me as I held out my hand for my keys.

“Elle. I'm serious I gotta check the brakes later.” He says as he reluctantly hands me over the keys and I nod like whatever as we go into the school.

Frankie and Mikey took off to I don’t know where, as Gerard and I went over to our lockers. He immediately started twisting his dial around and glanced over me out of the corner of his eye. I was just kinda standing there, looking at the row of lockers a little lost in my thoughts I suppose…

“Gimme a second, baby.” He says and I shrugged. I guess he thought I was waiting for him to open mine too and I sorta was… I mean I didn’t have the energy to fight with a fucking combination lock today… But as I stared up at the metal lockers it just hit me. My locker was right next to Melissa Walters…

“Gerard, my dad is Nick Walker!” I cry out with my sudden realization.

“What?” He says a little startled I suppose. I mean he didn’t know what the fuck I was thinking…

“Melissa Walters.” I tell him running my hand along her locker and he just looked at me a little nervously. “This is her locker.” I tell him and he just looked at me. “And this is mine.” I tell him running my hand along my own locker now and he arched his eyebrows up at me.

“Elle, did you fucking…?” He says squinting at me and I frowned. “You all right there baby?” He says looking me over and I nodded.

“No Gerard don’t you get it?” I say and he shook his head a little.

“Uh no.” He says and I frowned. “Elle I'm trying.” He says looking me over once more…

“Fuck. I always use to say like if I had a dad- how different my life would be.” I tell him and he licked his lips lightly but didn’t say anything. “Don’t you see?” I tell him pointing at the row of lockers. “Waller, Walters, Wang.” I show him. “Gerard my dads last name is Walker…I’d have exactly the same locker.” I tell him and he smiled. “Everything would be exactly the same!” I exclaimed as he turned and pulled his books out.

“Well I guess it’s meant to be.” He says and I smiled at hearing him say that. I mean he doesn’t believe in crap like that. He was kinda humoring me but I didn’t care. “It’s your destinyyyyy” He teases me and I laugh as I reach over and twist the handle on my locker and it popped open…

“ooooh” I cry out happily as I started pulling my books from it. I mean what luck! My locker was magically open once again. Maybe things were gonna start going my way…

“How did you do that?” Gerard asks me and I shrugged.

“I didn't . It was just open.” I tell him.

“Again?” He frowned as he came over and jiggled the handle a little, like he was checking if it was broken.

“You must not have shut it.” I tell him and he shook his head in disagreement.

“Naw I fucking shut it.” He says to me as he stepped over towards me and something shiny caught my eye. It was a little silver Hershey kiss sitting on the shelf… Just one… just sitting there, it was like a miracle!

“Oooh look chocolate!” I coo at it as I reached for it. In one swift motion I grabbed it quickly off the shelf and peeled the wrapper off as I brought it up to my mouth. But before it even touched my lips Gerard reached over and grabbed my wrist twisting it unnaturally backwards. “Aaah!” I cried out in pain watching my chocolate fall to the dirty floor.

“Fuck Elle.” He kinda yelled at me and the he immediately lowered his voice since we were in the middle of the hall and some people had looked over. “What the fuck you doing?” He says and I just looked at him a little blankly.

“I was gonna eat that.” I tell him and he widened his eyes at me slightly.

“No Elle.” He says and I pouted a little. “Where the fuck you think that came from?” He says and I shrugged.

“I don’t know.” I tell him weakly.

“You don’t fucking eat shit like that.” He scolds me.

“It was wrapped.” I tell him and he shook his head a little.

“Doesn’t matter Elle.” He says as I looked sadly down at it on the floor… I just wanted it so badly still I could practically taste it…

“Who else has the fucking combination Elle?” He asks me and I shrug as he kinda pushed me aside a little so he could look over the contents of my locker.

“I dunno …” I tell him pushing him back out of my way and he frowned a little.

“You think it's from Paul?” Gerard says and I froze up a little. “I mean he's done that shit before right?” Gerard says looking past me a little at someone down the hall and I paused a moment before answering him…How the fuck did he know that? I mean yeah, he was right...Paul did use to always leave me chocolate kisses in my locker. Usually after we had a fight or something, he’d try to bribe me with them… But I don’t know how Gerard would’ve known that…

“Well yeah, I guess.” I reply weakly as I glanced over my shoulder to see who the hell Gerard was still looking at but I didn’t see anyone in particular…"Wait, how did you know that?" I ask him and he kinda shrugged.

"I dunno." He replies and I just looked at him for a moment...He didn’t want to say it, but I knew how... I mean he told me before, he was watching me... He'd always been watching me... I just never noticed...

Fuck I wish I noticed before... Things could’ve been so different the last few years if I only noticed him before…I just stared down at the chocolate on the floor wishing I could rewind time or something...

“And who else has the combination Elle?” Gerard says lifting my chin back up softly...“I mean he’s the only one that knows it?” He asks me once more.

“I don’t know Gerard.” I tell him softly and he didn’t seem to like that answer….”I guess like like everybody knows it.” I offer and he continued to frown.

“Everybody?” He repeats back and I nod.

“Well yeah, seriously Gerard. Who ever I could get to fucking open it for me, I’d give the combination to.” I tell him and he crossed his arms on his chest as he looked down at me.

“Elle, you-“ He starts to lecture me and I snickered a little…

“Its just fucking books Gerard, really somebody wants to fucking steal them they can!” I laughed a little. “Actually they’d be doing me a fucking favor.” I tell him and he didn’t say anything.

“Its not the books Elle.” He says looking down at the chocolate on the floor himself now…

"Look I know what you’re thinking Gerard." I tell him and he swallowed a little nervously. "Its just a piece of chocolate, it’s not a big deal, it’s probably from Bob." I suggest and Gerard frowned.

"Its not from Bob. Bob knows better then to pull shit like this." He says and I shrugged not wanting to argue with him... I mean he seemed convinced it wasn't Bob, I don't know why but whatever...

"Well it’s certainly not from Will!" I sorta laughed and Gerard frowned. "Seriously Gerard ,Will is a fucking hundred thousand miles away." I tell him and he licked his lips and didn't say anything just continued to look past me at something down the hall. But since the bell was about to ring there was less people in the hall now and I was able to follow his line of vision and I frowned when I saw who he was looking at… It was Bob and…Jessica… Fuck. I hate that girl… "You wanna go ask Bobby, we'll go ask." I say and Gerard just pulled my arm back a little stopping me.

“Naw, come on lets just go. I'll talk to him later.” Gerard says grabbing a few books for me and slamming my locker door pretty hard too… Fuck. I really wanted to go over and see Bob, but I guess I'll talk to him later…

We had only gotten halfway down the hall towards the home ec room when Principal Bonner came out of the office and stopped us. He said he wanted to talk to us… Well more specifically to me… But he didn’t seem to mind Gerard being there…

He dragged us into his office and starting rambling about all this shit about procedures and fucking protocols and I don’t know what… I mean it was cause of what happened with Mr. S, that much I understood, but everything else just seemed to go right over my head… From what I could gather since Mr. Samuel quit before they could fire him, there was nothing they could do… Mr. Bonner just kept stressing like that they followed all the rules and guidelines and shit and I don’t know… I nodded along like I understood what he was saying but I really didn’t…

After a few minutes of Mr. Bonner going on and on he paused and kinda looked at me like he was waiting for me to say something but I didn’t know what- so I turned and looked at Gerard for some help…He sat forward and smirked a little at Mr. Bonner as he stood up…

“Is that it?” Gerard says snidely and Mr. Bonner nodded slightly so I stood up too and followed Gerard out, stopping only to grab a late pass from the secretary…

“Gerard what the hell was that all about in there?” I ask him once we started back down the hall.

“Aw Elle, don’t you get it- they're scared you're gonna sue them or some shit.” He says and I made a face. That was just the most ridiculous thing I ever heard…

“For what? Nothing happened.” I whisper to Gerard softly and he smirked once more.

"Not now Elle." He says shaking his head at me slightly as we walked down the hallway slowly towards the home ec room, stopping just outside the door…

”Well, we’re here, now what?” I tease him and he sorta smiled at me.

“Mmm, I’ll meet up with you later, in study okay?” He says and I kinda frowned a little. I mean he wasn’t gonna come back and get me after class? He was gonna meet up with me? It was weird… HE was weird. I mean he was acting all weird all of a sudden, giving me a real uneasy feeling…

“Mmmm Gerard...what’s going on?” I whined a little looking at him a little untrustingly. I couldn’t figure out if he wasn’t going to class or what…

“I want you to try and talk to Paul Elle.” He says handing me my books and my jaw dropped open.

“You want me to what?!” I gasp totally stunned at the words coming out of his mouth…

“About the chocolate.” He says and I shrugged. “And Oliver’s funeral.” He adds and I looked down at the floor slightly. “You still wanna go right?” He says lifting my chin up and I nodded weakly. “Okay then get to class.” He says nudging me towards the door.

“Well where are you going?” I ask and he just looked at me with that blank stare I can’t read. “Gerard!” I insist.

“I'm just gonna call Brian.” He says and I nodded. I mean as much as he hated Lia he was worried about her still…And I couldn’t blame him. I mean the thought of her going off with Mr. S was probably the reason why my headache wasn’t going away… “I’ll see you next period baby.” He says kissing my cheek and pushing me into the doorway… Fucker… I mean I would’ve went with him except Mrs. Grady saw me…

I gave her my late pass and went over and reluctantly took my seat next to Paul… Mrs. Grady was going on and on about something… I wasn’t sure what cause I wasn’t paying attention and it didn’t really matter. I mean the class was almost over anyway… Finally she shut up seconds before the bell rang. I kinda turned my attention to Paul but he spoke first…

“Where were you yesterday?” He asks me and I suddenly lost my train of thought…

“I wasn’t here.” I reply and he smiled.

“Yeah I know that, that’s why I asked where you were.” He kinda chuckled and I shrugged.

“I had something to do. But I wanted to talk to you-” I tell him trying to focus my thoughts back…

“Yeah I know. -Don’t you have something to say to me Elle?” He says and I just looked at him totally bemused. How the fuck did he know I had something to say to him? Am I that transparent?

“Like what?” I gasped a little as the bell rang and he just reached over and picked up my bag for me and tossed it on his shoulder. I didn’t say anything. I mean I guess he was gonna walk me to study which was good cause I still needed to talk to him…

“Like what?” He kinda chuckled back. “How bout like thank you!” He says as we walked down the hall. I guess he could tell by my puzzled expression that I didn’t know what the fuck he was talking about. “What the fuck you think the tire fairy came and fixed your tires?” He laughs and I frowned.

“You did that!” I cried out a little outraged and he continued to laugh.

“Well yeah who else Elle?” He says and I swatted at his arm in anger.

“Why would you do that!” I demand and he just looked at me like he didn’t know why I was so upset. “You take it back Paul!” I tell him and he smirked at me. “I'm serious fucking…un-do it…flatten them again.” I say getting all worked up and he shook his head at me like I was nuts.

“You know how much those cost?” He says and I pouted a little at him as we came up to the cafeteria doors… I could see Gerard inside, kinda watching me with Paul out of the corner of his eye too but he didn’t come over…

Paul started going on about how much he's changed and like this was suppose to prove it or something…I don’t know. I wasn’t really listening… I just couldn’t believe that he fucking did that… I mean I guess he didn’t realize how much that freaked me out… especially after everything with Will, but he didn’t really know too much about that I suppose…

“Look Elle can we talk later?” He says I guess realizing I wasn’t really listening to him… I automatically shook my head no and he frowned. “Well what did you want to talk to me about?” He says as the bell rang.

“Um oh… Oliver’s funeral… Is it tonight?” I ask and he nodded as he started jogging backwards from me...

“Yeah, uh I’ll pick you up at 5 love.” He calls out.

“Paul no!” I yelled at him as I shook my head no but he just ignored me like he couldn’t hear me or something as he turned down the hall, but I know he did…

“Well?” Gerard says as I tossed my bag on to the table and I cringed a little. Shit I forgot to ask him about the chocolate…

”I didn’t ask him.” I say softly and Gerard frowned.

“Then what the fuck were you talking to him about?” Gerard demands as I spotted little Miss Jessica coming in to the cafeteria… I mean she was late, I was hoping she wasn’t gonna show up at all, but here she was… Walking straight towards us no less…

“He uh… was the one who fixed my tires.” I whispered to Gerard softly and he opened his mouth to say something back but I guess changed his mind when he noticed Jessica sitting down… I mean I suppose he didn’t want to talk about it in front of her either… He just kinda sighed a little and squeezed my hand in his on top of the table…

Fuck I wish I knew what he was thinking… I wanted so badly to fucking talk to him too. Why the hell did Jessica have to sit here with us?! I was so tempted to just fucking tell her to take a long walk off a short cliff but I don’t know what Gerard would say if I did and I didn’t need any more drama going on.

But I guess Jessica didn’t get that memo cause right away she's gotta start up with me…

“Aw Elle, what happened to that pretty little ring you use to wear…?” She says nodding towards my empty finger...