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“Bryar?!” Gerard cried out his name in outrage and I knew it was bad… For him to call him by his last name like that? Aw fuck, it was worse then bad it was a catastrophe… “He told you what?!” Gerard sorta snapped and before I could even blink he was up off the bed and halfway across the room. Pacing slightly as he clenched his fists.

I didn’t even have to ask him if it was true or not. I could tell by his reaction that it wasn’t…Fuck I should've know there was no way that it was true…Damn, why do I always doubt him?

“Elle!” He cries out and I suddenly realize he's been talking to me this whole time…I mean I kinda heard him he was saying something about Bob and shit… “Well?” He demands and I could only imagine he was asking what Bob said.

“I don't know Gerard.” I replied and I guess it was the wrong answer cause he was glaring at me now. At me! Like I did something. “Just calm down.” I try to tell him and he shook his head no. I mean I didn’t really think it would work but I had to try…

“Elle.” He says my name once more. But this time he sort of sighed it, dragging it out on his tongue.

“Come…sit.” I tell patting the bed for him to come back and he rubbed the side of his head like he was getting a headache, but he finally came and sat back down.

“I just don't fucking believe him.” He says and I got the feeling he was just thinking out loud cause he wasn’t really directing it at me.

“Why would he lie Gerard?” I ask him softly and for a spilt second he looked at me like he couldn’t believe I said that. Like maybe he thought I meant that he was the one who was lying and that’s not what I meant… “I mean he was obviously mistaken.” I add quickly and Gerard frowned.

“Yeah obviously.” Gerard says snidely back and I bit my lip a little. I didn’t like his tone but I tried to ignore it since he was already so very stressed.

“Look Bobby must’ve really thought it Gerard or he wouldn’t have said it.” I tell him defending Bob and Gerard shook his head at me.

“He shouldn’t have said shit either way Elle.” He tells me and I hated to get into it with him. I mean I should've just went to bed before when he wanted to. But no! I wanted to talk. Shit, how fucking stupid am I sometimes?

“Look, Gerard. Bob is my friend he was only trying to look out for me, like you’ve asked him to so many times.” I tell him and he smirked a little.

“He's not just your friend.” He says staring past me a little, obviously getting lost in some thought he wasn’t about to share.

“Oh I know what this is about.” I tell him and he sorta looked at me like I didn’t. “No I do.” I insist. “This is cause Bob is your friend too.” I tell him and he laughed. “You feel like he betrayed you, cause he didn’t keep your secret.” I add and Gerard scrunched his face at me.

“Wasn’t a secret.” He sort of pouted and I rolled my eyes.

“No it was just something you hid from me, and told everyone not to tell me right?” I say sarcastically and he diverted his eyes from me. “You know what? It doesn’t even matter Gerard.” I sighed a little as I reached over and ran my hand down his back. “It’s just…” I paused slightly to find the right words. “Its just that Bob's my friend, he cares for me, you know?” I tell him and he chuckled softly.

“Cares for you?” He repeated back softly. “Yeah I know he cares for you Elle.” He says with this strange undertone to his voice.

“Well that’s why he told me. I mean he must’ve really thought it was true and that’s why he told me- cause he cares.” I repeat and once more and Gerard laughed yet again.

“Elle that’s not why he told you.” He says and I frowned.

“Come now Gerard.” I tell him scoldingly. “I know you're hurt and all, but you're making it sound like he doesn’t like you anymore and that’s not true.” I tell him and he shook his head a little.

“That’s not what I meant either.” He argued and I sighed a little frustrated. I mean I know what I'm talking about. It doesn’t happen often but when it does- it does.

“No I know what you meant. I know how you feel.” I tell him and he smiled at me a little amused.

“Aw do you now?” He says and I nodded. “Well do tell.” He says and I knew he was mocking me. He wanted me to say something back and then he would say something raunchy back to me. And then we’d end up fucking all night and nothing would be settled. I wasn’t gonna let him pull me in like that… not this time…

“Okay, look Gerard. I'm sorry to be the one to tell you this, but Bob is more my friend then he is yours.” I tell him and once more he laughed.

“Elle, please…stop.” He chuckled and I smiled back at him.

“Well I'm sorry Gerard but it’s true.” I insist. “Bob belongs to me now. I mean I know you all were friends and I'm real sorry that you guys grew apart, but if you want to fix it, you can work on your relationship with him- find shit to do-“ I try to say and he reached over and silenced me with his finger to my lip.

“You are so far off baby.” He tells me and I frowned. I wasn’t far off. Gerard was hurt cause Bob was more loyal to me now. He just didn’t want to admit it…

“Look just promise you're gonna talk to him tomorrow.” I say as a last ditch effort and he sorta made a face at me. “At the aquarium.” I add and he rubbed his head once more.

“Aw fuck.” He grumbled. I guess he had forgotten about that.

“I already told him we’re still going.” I say to Gerard as I pulled the blankets back on the bed. He just kinda watched me and didn’t say anything… “Gerard look, I've told you once before I cant have you two at each others throats.” I tell him and he kicked his shoes off roughly.

“Well then he shouldn’t have said shit.” He grumbled and I frowned.

“He must’ve got the idea from somewhere.” I tell him and he didn’t say anything so I knew I was on the right track. “I mean had you sold shit to Oliver before?” I ask and he shrugged. “Yes?” I insist and he frowned as he stood up.

“Yeah…so?” He says and I rolled my eyes a little.

“So? I don't know Gerard. You tell me… Bobby said he saw him that morning- did you?” I ask and once more he was quiet…”You know this would be easier if you fucking answered me.” I tell him and he lowered his eyes slightly.

“Yeah Elle, I fucking saw him. He asked me for shit okay?” He says and I felt like the wind was knocked out of me. I mean he just said that he didn’t sell him anything…. is he saying now that he did?!

“Gerard?” I say a little confused and he sighed.

“I didn’t have anything, but I wish I did.” He says lifting his eyes back up to me and I looked at him a little uneasily. “Don't you get it, that’s why he was huffing. Cause I didn’t have shit to sell him.” He tells me and I felt my heartache for him…

“Gerard- no.” I tell him and he shrugged like he didn’t want to talk about it. Damn. So he was feeling guilty… I was right then -that’s why he didn’t come in.

I mean I thought I had a fucked up apology to give Oliver’s parents you know –Sorry I left your son to die alone- but Gerard's was worse. -Sorry that I ran out of drugs, and your son OD’d on a paint can cause it was all he could find-… Fuck…

“Well, I mean…” I stammered a bit. “At least we know where Bob got the idea from.” I say trying to find some good in all that was just said. Gerard didn’t say anything he just reached over and shut one of the lights.

His mood was still kinda off, it was obvious. I mean first cause he was still dressed. I don't know if he was planning on going to bed fully dressed like that or what… And I was dressed too. I mean usually he’d sit and watch me change but he just climbed up on the bed and laid back and looked up at the ceiling in silence.

I just stood there watching him for a while and I guess he snapped out of whatever thought was consuming him cause he looked up at me a little surprised… Like he didn’t realize I was standing there.

“Come here.” He says extending his arms open for me and I didn’t even hesitate for a second. I just jumped up on top of him, right into the safety of his arms…

“It’s not your fault you know.” I say softly as I rested my head on his chest and I felt him sigh.

“Yeah I know.” He tells me as he reached up and began stroking my hair lightly.

“And please don't be mad at Bobby.” I tell him and he paused his hand midway through my hair. “Please Gerard.” I sorta begged him and resumed his stroking motion but still didn’t answer me right away.

“I’ll talk with him in the morning.” He says and I lifted my head up off his chest.

“No we’ll talk with him.” I correct him and he sorta gave me a funny look. “I'm serious.” I tell him and he shrugged.

“Then we’ll talk to him” Gerard repeats back but it was like he was just saying it to amuse me...But I was serious. I mean there was no way I was gonna leave them two alone until I was sure they were okay, between Bobs temper and Gerard's stubbornness they were liable to kill each other… Plus I wanted to talk to Bobby anyway.

“Good.” I tell him and he sorta chuckled. “Now is there anything else Gerard?” I ask him as I lifted myself off of him and he looked at me a little funny as I sat upright on top of him straddling him once again.

“Like what?” He says and I smiled.

“Well I don't know you promised to make me scream remember?” I tease him and he smiled.

“Uh yeah let me just get my pajamas on.” He says reaching to lift my shirt up and I giggled as his hands brushed along my skin.

“Ah you're cold.” I tell him and he smiled and said something back but I didn’t hear him cause the phone rang out sharply in the same instant.

We both kinda just looked over at it. I mean I wasn’t expecting any calls, and it wasn’t like many people knew we were here…

“Maybe it’s the insurance company.” I tell him as I reach for it and he stopped me.

“Naw its too late for them to call baby.” He says and it was obvious he didn’t want me to answer it.

“Well maybe its Bob.” I tell him and I reached for it but stopped myself… I mean what if it was Bob! What if he was gonna try to cancel on me for tomorrow! Aw fuck no…. If I don't pick it up he can’t cancel…

“You don't want to talk to your Bobby?” Gerard sorta teased me and I frowned.

“No I do, but what if he says he's not coming tomorrow.” I tell him and he sorta smirked as the phone continued to ring.

“Well whoever it is they ain’t fucking giving up.” He said and I frowned in agreement. I mean he was right, the phone must’ve rang like 16 times now…

“Aw fuck it.” I grumbled as I picked it up.

I mean if it was Bob trying to cancel I would just be mature and hold my ground, either that or I would cry like a baby… whichever.

“Hello?” I say cautiously into the receiver.

“Elle? It’s me… can we talk?” The voice says and my heart skipped a beat.

“Uh sure…Will…”