FicWad

As soon as I said Will’s name Gerard sat up right, and since I was on his lap I tipped over backwards. I almost fell off on to the floor but at the last second he hooked his arm up and caught me. He grabbed me and pulled me back onto the bed and somehow through all this we ended up getting all tangled in the phone cord.

“Just a second.” I tell Will as I tried to untangle us, since the cord was practically fucking choking the life out of me...

Gerard reached over like he wanted me to give him the phone but I shook my head no. I mean Will wanted to talk to me, not him.

“Elle” He sorta hissed at me like to give him the phone but I wouldn’t. I just twisted slightly away from him instead… I mean, I don't know what the fuck his problem was. Okay yeah, I know he wanted the phone and shit, but what the fuck? He was freaking out now.

“No!” I hissed back at him and he frowned as he tried to snatch the phone from me. I instinctively turned my body from him and took a step back momentarily forgetting that the phone had an extremely short cord.

As I tugged it, it came crashing down off the little nightstand table and I screamed as I tried to catch it… But it was too late. It had already smashed to the floor and when I held the receiver back up to my ear – the line was dead.

“Fuck Gerard!” I yelled at him and he gave me this look like I was certainly not blaming him for what just happened, but I was! “I wanted to fucking talk to him!” I whined a little as I went over to pick up the phone from the floor.

“For what?!” He replied tossing his hands up in the air roughly as he watched me.

“I don't know.” I shrugged a little. “Maybe see where he is? I mean he knows where we are right?” I point out and Gerard's face dropped a little at my words. I guess he didn’t think of that…

“aw fuck.” He sorta grumbled as I checked the phone to see if it still worked.

“And now he probably fucking thinks like I'm in some kinda trouble right? I mean he must think like we were fighting or something.” I added and Gerard didn’t answer me, he just reached for his shoes quickly to put them back on.

“You stay here.” He tells me and I frowned.

“Fuck no Gerard.” I snapped at him. I mean there was no way that was gonna happen...”Where the hell do you think you’re gonna go anyway?” I asked him and he shook his head a little. I mean we didn’t have a car, so we couldn’t leave…

“I'm just gonna go look around outside.” He says and I reached for my coat.

“Then I'm coming with you.” I tell him and he frowned.

“There’s nothing to look at Elle.” He tells me and I laughed.

“Then what are you going to look at?” I ask him and he sighed in annoyance. “At least, let me call him back.” I tell him and he shook his head at me.

“How you gonna do that?” He asked me and I sorta made a face as I went back over to the phone.

“Uh star 69 Gerard.” I tell him plainly. I mean he knows that, everybody knows that… Before he could stop me I picked up the phone and pounded the numbers in.

“Elle!” He cried out and I shushed him.

“Shh, it’s ringing.” I tell him waving my hand at him slightly to be quiet…

Some lady answered so I asked if I could talk to Will, she didn’t have a clue what I was talking about… I talked to her for a moment and when I hung up I was met with Gerard's eager stare.

“Well?” He demands.

“He wasn’t there.” I tell him and he arched his eyebrows up at me. “it was some payphone in Florida.” I tell him and he frowned as he sat down on the edge of the bed…

I could only imagine that he was feeling the same thing that I was… A slight relief cause Florida wasn’t New Jersey… But still… Florida wasn’t New Mexico…

“Come on lay back down.” I nudge him and didn’t say anything for a moment. I guess he was thinking shit over in his head. “Gerard.” I whined nudging him again and still no answer. “what do you want to do?” I asked him and he sighed a little.

“I don't know Elle.” He tells me and I bit my lip a little as I looked at him.

“You want me to call Bobby?” I offered and he snapped.

“Fuck no!” He scoffed at my suggestion and I frowned. I mean I thought it was a good idea.

“Yeah but Bob can pick us up and maybe we can stay at his house if you don't wanna stay here, but I don't know Gerard, I mean like, Florida is far from here, and I don't know how he knows that we were here but-“ I started rambling and Gerard just shook his head at me to stop. “But maybe we should call Bob. If you don't know what to do-“ I try to say and he cuts me off.

“I never said I don't know what to do. - just stop talking and let me think.” He tells me with this condescending tone to his voice and I found myself pouting as I crawled across the bed.

He was sitting at the foot of it, with his head hung forward slightly, thinking about whatever and I was up by the pillows sitting Indian style, pouting away with my arms crossed on my chest as I stared at the back of his head…

This was bullshit! I mean what the fuck… I wanted to tell him to come lay down. I mean Will was in fucking Florida! There was nothing we could do about it now and it was stupid to stay up all night worrying… The hotel has ‘security’, the fucking door is locked and the windows are locked –we were safe…

I opened my mouth to call him and paused…Shit he said ‘don't talk to him’… And since I didn’t want to upset him anymore then he already was I reached over and grabbed the complimentary pad and pen on the nightstand. I scribbled briefly on it before crawling down to the foot of the bed and handing it to him…

“What the fuck is this?” He grumbled as he took it from me. “Gerard” He reads. “Can you please come to bed now.'" He sorta chuckled as I looked at him pathetically. “Elle." He shook his head at me. "Come here baby.” He says calling me over but before I could move he had come up to where I was on the bed.

He sorta pulled me down on the mattress and slowly ran his hand down my cheek as he laid down next to me. I just stared up adoringly at him for a second.

“You know I love you Elle.” He says and I nodded. I guess he was waiting for me to answer him back cause he looked at me a little questioningly, like how come I wasn’t saying it back… As I reached for the notepad in his hand he chuckled. “Aw no Elle, you can talk now baby.” He says tossing the notepad to the floor now.

“You sure?” I ask him and he smiled.

“Yeah.” He sighed as he brushed the hair from my face.

“I wish I could’ve talked to him Gerard.” I tell him softly and he sighed once more.

“What were you gonna say Elle?” He asks me and I shrugged. I mean I wasn’t quite sure what I was gonna say, I hadn’t really thought about it…

“I don't know, maybe tell him to leave me alone.” I say stupidly. I mean I didn’t think it would work, but whatever…”You know or, I mean… if he cared for me then he should leave me alone.” I tell Gerard and he sorta shrugged. “And if that didn’t work then I’d tell him to stop or you're gonna kill him.” I declare and Gerard laughed.

“Oh I'm a killer now?” He says and I smiled.

“Well, no Gerard, I'm just saying.” I sorta laughed. “I mean like, you’re a big bad drug dealer right?” I tease him and he rolled his eyes a little.

“Elle.” He sighed in annoyance.

“No I'm serious Gerard, he doesn’t know how squishy you are inside.” I tell him pressing on his stomach and he sorta laughed. “If anything good can come from this.” I shrugged a little and he stretched his arms back as he laid back on the bed, once more kicking his shoes off…”Cause like Will was always sorta scared of Paul, so maybe now he’ll think you're scary too-“ I propose and he shrugged.

“Yeah I suppose.” He says as I climbed back up on top of him. “I do have a reputation you know?” He says trying to sound cocky but I just laughed. “I do.” He says sliding his hands up my shirt once again.

“Oh I believe you.” I tell him pushing his hands back down slightly. “I just don't understand how.” I tell him and he sorta smirked at me… “I mean it takes a long time to build up credibility like that Gerard.” I tell him and I knew what I was talking about… I mean I watched Lia do it… Fuck, I helped Lia do it… It was hard…People don't just trust you, you need connections and they're hard to come by…

“Naw it was easy.” He shrugged and I pressed my lips together as I looked at him.

“Bullshit.” I tell him and he sorta smiled like he knew something I didn’t… “Tell me.” I nudge him and he laughed. “Gerard.” I whined and he shook his head no so I tried to climb off of him.

“Whoa.” He laughed as he tried to stop me.

“No Gerard, you tell me.” I pouted and he smiled.

“Fine Elle, I used Teddy.” He sorta mumbled and at first I wasn’t sure I heard him right.

“Teddy?” I repeated back and he tried not to smile.

“Yeah Elle.” He says shrugging and I frowned.

“Gerard you know Teddy’s not real, he's a stuffed animal.” I point out and he sorta rolled his eyes at me a little as he pulled me back down on to the bed.

“Yeah I know that Elle, but no one else does.” He tells me and I scrunched my face as I thought of what he was saying…

“So you're saying you’ve been running shit for Teddy.” I tell him trying not to laugh but I couldn’t help it. I mean the whole thing was ridiculous! Gerard working for a stuffed animal!

And to top it off he was now trying to undress me as we talked but I was resisting… I mean I wasn’t stupid. I knew once he had my clothes off there wasn’t gonna be much more ‘talking’ going on, so I was trying to stall…

“Running shit for him?” He chuckled back. “Fuck no baby.” He tells me as he fumbled with the button on my jeans… “We were partners.” He adds and I shrieked a little as I sat up.

“Partners!?” I cried out and he smiled at me. “Come on Gerard who would believe that!?” I tell him and he shrugged.

“I don't know Joey Marshall did.” He tells me and I scoffed. He meant Jay.

“Jay’s a fucking stoner.” I tell him and he shrugged once more.

“And Brian did.” He says and I made a face.

“Well he's just as stupid as Jay then.” I tell him and he smiled.

“Elle, you don't realize that Teddy a fucking-“ He tries to say and I cut him off.

“He's a bear.” I tell him and he shook his head a little.

“To you Elle, maybe to Lia too, but to everyone else his name means something -” He says his voice trailing off a little. Either that or I just couldn’t hear what he said cause he took advantage of the fact that I was sitting upright now, to pull my shirt over my head.

“So that’s it?” I asked him and he shrugged as he ran his hand along the edge of my bra like he didn’t want to quite take it off yet…

“Well yeah I told them you introduced me and whatever.” He mumbled as he took his own shirt off now and I giggled. “What?” He tells me and I shrugged. “Elle!” He insists and I couldn’t blame him. I was giggling uncontrollably now, and it had nothing to do with him taking off his shirt…

“I was just thinking like, remember that movie we were watching where like the FBI dudes had that big board with all the names on it and the fucking arrows connecting like the pictures of the criminals.” I tell him and he smiled back.

“Uh yeah.” He says cautiously and I giggled once more.

“I bet somewhere someone’s got like a board like that and there’d be a big picture of Teddy at the top.” I tell him and he smiled. “Like a mug-shot of poor teddy.” I add and he laughed.

“Well hopefully it was taken before you decapitated him.” He teases me and I swatted at his arm.

“Gerard!” I whined and he laughed. “It’s not funny Gerard. I bet Robocop really does have a board like that.” I tell him and he arched his eyebrow up at me.

“Robocop?” He repeats back and I nodded.

”Yeah you met him that cop.” I remind him and he laughed once more.

“You mean Detective James.” He says and I shrug.

“Yeah but I call him Robocop.” I tell Gerard and he smiled and shook his head a little as he looked at me.

“Fuck baby I don't know what goes on in your head sometimes.” He says as he reached over and shut the other light off, the soft glow from the lamp filling the room now.

“Mmm maybe I’ll write it down for you one day.” I tell him as I crawled under the blankets and he laughed. “I’ll write you out our whole life story Gerard., you know starting with ‘once upon a time’.” I teased him giggling slightly as he pulled me up on top of him.

“Ah I know how it starts, I'm more interested in how it’s gonna end…”