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I hung up from Brian and my head was spinning. I was wearing fucking purple. lace. underwear! How could this have happened? What the hell is wrong with me? How could I not remember putting them on in the morning?! …Ah I know. It was cause I was so upset about Gerard and Bobby being okay that I wasn’t paying attention. Seemed ironic though, that my worry only led to the them being more upset with each other…

And Bobby! Oh my poor Bobby… How could I have doubted him like that? He's been nothing but a good friend to me. I mean I think that’s why Gerard got so worked up cause Bob and I are so close. But I still felt awful about doubting him… It’s a good thing he really can’t read minds! Hopefully he’ll never know. And once I apologize and he and Gerard make up then everything will go back to normal. Or at least what I consider normal…

My thoughts spun from Gerard to Bobby and back to Gerard as I waited anxiously for Brian. It didn’t take him long to get there. I quickly explained to him what had happened with Will and don't know. He told me I should’ve called the police and I tried to explain why I couldn’t… I mean me and the cops don't really get along that well.

I somehow managed to convince him to drive back around to the park, so we could see if Wills car was still there. If it was then that meant that he was still in the woods. And if he was, fuck that meant like he was in some kinda trouble. I mean maybe he figured out a way to hammer himself up? I don't know. But Brian said if he was still there that he was gonna call the cops and they could go fish him out or whatever, but it didn’t get that far.

I mean his car wasn’t in the lot. Which was good in a way cause that meant that he wasn’t strung up in a tree, but it was also bad too cause it meant that I had no idea where he was anymore. Shit, he was probably off robbing somebody, or someplace cause I had taken all his money. And I didn’t even mean to! I didn’t fucking want it. I mean it was tainted as far as I was concerned.

But Brian said that we could go back to his house and that like Crystal was home and shit, and he said that we could call Gerard when we got there. I was still so fucking high from that pill that I took before that I didn’t argue back. I mean I really didn’t want to go to his house but whatever…. All I wanted was Gerard…

Brian was talking to me on the way there too, but I couldn’t say what it was about. I was completed zoned out from him and I think he could tell too but he didn’t say anything… When we got to his house I followed him up the steps and stood kinda awkwardly by the door as he spoke to Crystal. I mean she wanted to know why he was home and not at work like he was supposed to be. And why he was with me of all people. But more importantly why he seemed to be wiping the fingerprints off a gun in their kitchen… I sorta spaced out as they spoke… Brian nodded for me to like come over but I didn’t move. I mean I wasn’t gonna stay. I just wanted to call Gerard and have him come get me already…

“Uh Elle, why don't you let me get you something to change into?” Crystal said softly as she came out of the kitchen towards me. She was talking to me like she felt sorry for me and I didn’t know why.

“Change?” I repeated back stupidly and she nodded towards my jeans. Shit I was all fucking muddy… I wonder how that happened. Oh yeah. I guess from sitting on that log. “Oh no I'm fine I'm just gonna sit and wait for Gerard.” I tell her and she cringed as I stepped towards the sofa. “Oh I get it.- Don't sit…muddy…” I tell her and she sorta smiled at me. “Uhhh I’ll just stand then.” I suggest and she frowned.

“No don't be silly, come on. Brian will call him, while you change.” She says tugging me and I resisted.

“I wouldn’t feel right taking your clothes Crystal.” I tell her truthfully. It wasn’t cause she was like a lesbian and had like lesbian cooties or anything. I just didn’t know her that well, and it wasn’t right.

“Naw Lia still has a bunch of crap here. I'm sure some of its yours!” She laughed and I laughed too as I followed her down the hallway.

She was right too. Lia had more crap of mine then I did! I didn’t even think twice about changing in front of her either. I mean maybe I should've but whatever. I already had my pants around my ankles and she didn’t seem to be bothered by it. Suddenly the phone rang out and I felt my heart skip a beat. It was Gerard calling back! I just knew it. And he was gonna be so relived to know I was okay…

I quickly pulled my clothes on and dashed out into the living room. I couldn’t really hear what Brian saying at first but I caught the tail end of his sentence and it was just weird.

“-she didn’t say anything like that man.” He was saying into the phone and when he saw me he pulled the phone from his ear slightly.

“Is that Gerard?” I asked eagerly reaching for the phone. He nodded like it was but he leant back a little from me like he wasn’t gonna give me the phone.

“Uh yeah, but Elle, you know what happened to Bob?” He says and as soon as he said it my heart skipped a beat…

“Bob? What happened to my Bobby?” I asked frantically and he shook his head a little.

“Nothing. I mean like, you didn’t leave with Bob?” He says and I scrunched my face in confusion.

“No I told you I left with Will.” I tell him and he repeated it into the phone. Holy fuck. I think Gerard thought I left with Bob! “Brian.” I whine trying to get his attention but he sorta shushed me as he continued to talk to Gerard. Finally he tells him something like I was fucked up before handing me the phone… Great… Now I was gonna be in trouble…

I sorta glared at him as I took the phone. I mean he just had to throw that in right? I wasn’t even like that high anymore! And who the fuck asked him… shit…

“Hello?” I say weakly into the phone and Gerard sighed a little.

“You okay Elle.” He says and I nodded.

“mmm yeah.” I replied and he sniffled a little as he shifted the phone. He started mumbling something and I couldn’t quite make it out. I don't think he was even talking to me. “Where are you?” I asked and he sniffled once more.

“Ah I'm home.” He replied and there was something funny in his voice.

“Oh.” I replied plainly. I mean he was home? He wasn’t out looking for me? Well, no I guess not… I mean he thought I left with Bob… but why? “mmm Gerard.” I start to say but he was already talking. I couldn’t really hear him. Something about Bob and him not knowing Will came by…

“Shit baby if I had thought for a second that you…” He says his voice trailing off and I shook my head a little. He was rambling and not really making sense.

“Did something happen to Bob?” I ask cutting him off and he coughed a little.

“I don't know,” was his reply and I frowned.

“Gerard!” I insisted. I mean he's suppose to know this shit!

“Elle!” He repeats back as his defense. I guess he heard me sigh in frustration cause he shifted the phone again. “I really don't know baby, I'm sure he's fine, I thought you were with him.” He adds and I frowned.

“Why?” I asked and he paused a moment.

“I dunno” was his lame ass reply. And he kinda grumbled it too. I tried not to roll my eyes at him, but it didn’t matter, he couldn’t see me.

“Well what happened?” I asked insistently. I still couldn’t understand how neither one knew I was missing…

“You were there.” He replied and I exhaled loudly.

“I mean like when I left.” I try to clarify and he said something softly something once more, but again it didn’t seem to be directed at me.

“I don't know, you left- he left- damn Elle.” He mumbled at me. He was getting upset. And I still didn’t understand why he would think I’d leave with Bob like that. “You're always fucking sticking up for him. He's your fucking ‘Bobby’.” He says nastily and I frowned. “Even after he fucking pulls shit like that you defend him.” He added and I shook my head. He still thought Bob took my underwear… great… I was trying to think of how to tell him how stupid I was but he kept babbling on. It wasn’t like him. And he wasn’t making sense again…

“Gerard are you fucking high?” I ask him and he sniffled once more.

“hmm?” He says avoiding my question.

“Shit you are aren’t you?” I tell him and I can see him in my mind giving me that stupid sheepish grin of his. I had caught him and he couldn’t deny it… “That’s nice… I mean I'm out in the fucking woods running for my life and you’re home in bed listening to music and getting high, right Gerard?” I tell him. Shit he was probably drawing shit too…

“I thought you ran off with Bob Elle.” He says and I guess that was his attempt at justifying his behavior. I don't know. I mean I got it. I didn’t like it but I understood. And who was I to tell him shit anyway. I was no better then he was. You get upset – you get high. I mean that’s just how it was…

I was gonna tell him like it was okay and shit, but I didn’t get a chance to. There was another voice suddenly in the background. I couldn’t make out exactly what she was saying but it was definitely a she…

“Is there someone there?” I asked and he sniffled once more.

“Uhhh yeah.” He says hesitantly and then there was silence. He wasn’t gonna elaborate and I got this horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach all of a sudden.

“Who?” I asked firmly. I mean I lowered my voice and I know he could tell that he had to answer me. I wasn't playing around, I wanted an answer. And I got it…

“Its umm… Jade.”