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I didn't want to leave Frankie, I really didn't.
But he was going to need more clothes. His ones he's wearing are blood stained and all very discusting.. I mean. Not discusting.
He just had blood all over them.

I pulled into the drive thinking about the way I can help Mikey understand that I love that boy..
I didn't past judgement when he got together with Alica even though shes done the majority of New Jersey..
I never told him how to live his life.. I was caring for him, I was ready to mend his broken heart once she fucked my baby brother over.

I walked in the door turning the tv off and walking to my room taking a different bag.
Then remembered Frankie has my Black Flag bag.

I went into his room, It just smelt of him so much.. God I love his smell.
as soon as I wake up in the morning and I smell it I'm so convinced I'm not even alive anymore.. Its like what Heaven should smell like.
I pulled myself from my weird and twisted thoughts and went to Frankies bag to take some clothes for him.

I lifted up one of his shirt and a piece of paper fell from it.
I began unfolding it.

It was a take away menu form Luigis...
What did he want this for?

I looked to the bottom of it when green coloring pencil caught my eye

'When Gerards around... Frankie feels NOT frightened of the places or the people..Untill we're in Detriot' it read.
It brought tears to my eyes.. He thought of me as something... I wasn't to sure on. But I know I wanted to be with him more than anything in the world.

I snapped back to reality. Once I stoped having happily ever after fanticys about me and Frankie
and continued packing his bag.

Once I was positive I had everything he would need in there, I went to my room taking a few peices of clothing, My cell phone and Frankies picture of us.
I sat in my car when my phone began to ring.

It was Mikey.

"..Mikey"
"Hi Gerard"
"..Whats up?"
"Nothing"
"oh. ok well I have to go then"
"have you told him"
"Told him what?" I asked curiously

"That you ...love him" He said hesitating on one word
"not yet Mikey"
"Will you?"
"I think so"
"Please don't"

"Mikey, This is my life. I'm old enough to make my own decisions"
"But I think your making a major mistake"
"I though that about Alicia"
"Please Gerard, Just be careful"

"Why?"
"Because I don't want Jaxon harrassing you if you really do ...love him" he said hesitating on that four letter word again
"Thanks for the warning Mikey, But he wont harrass me"
"Ok Gerard"

He sounded like he was in a very quiet place.

"Mikey.. Where are you?"
"Alicias bathroom"
"Why her bathroom?"
"she didn't want me talking to you if Frank was around"
"Well tell her-"

"Mikey Baby, the movie's ready"
"Ok Allie, I'm just washing my face"
"ok"
I heard Alicia and Mikey call out to each other

He always called her Allie. I don't know why.

"I'm sorry Gerard, I have to go"
"Ok, Bye Mikey"
"I Like you Gerard"
"I like you too Mikey"

He didn't like me saying the love word to him once he got to High school.
Something to do with being popular

I finialy drove to the hospital.

I didn't actualy get the point in that convosation me and Mikey just had.
But it was good.. I think.

Once I was in the car park I took Frankies bag and went to his room.

There was just one light on in there.. The one above his bed.
It was very late.. It was about 11:30.. ish.

"I'm back"
"Oh.. Yay, I missed you" He said.

Something didn't look right.

"Whats wrong Frankie?" I asked.
"Nothing, Nothing I'm fine, Honestly"
"Ok then..." I said not to sure weather to believe him or not.

There was a rather long awkward silence..

"I...I brought you something from home" I said in attempt to lift his spirits
"What would that be?" He asked.

I reached into the back part of Frankies bag pulling the photos out.
He looked at them smiling.

"its so if I'm not here, You can look at it"
"Thank you Gerard, That means alot"
"Your very welcome Frankie"


I sat next to him, Just observing his movement.
Observing everything about him.
Something didn't seem right.

"Are. you-"
"Yes"

How did he know what I was saying

"I didnt even finish my scentence"
"Oh..." He said

He looked to me.

"Are you going to say it again then?" he said smiling
"are you o-"
"no!" he answered again. his smile streched straight across his face.

"Frankie damn it, Are you ok?"
"I'm not sure Gerard" he said as I watched his smile fade.
"Wanna talk about it?"
"wanna get in my bed?"
"thats not what we're talking about"
"But it would help me tell you"
"Ok then."

I watched him get out.

"where are you going?"
"Your getting in first.. I like laying on you" he said pushing me onto the bed.

Thats when I noticed the bed was amazingly giant.. It could fit my fat ass in there.. Wow!

I layed with Frankies head on my arm and his arm draped over my waist.
I looked into his eyes and had no idea I was grinning.

"What?" Frankie asked so cutely.
"I.. I just never noticed how.. Everything you are"
"what ever Gerard.."
"no, Truth your just so fucking.... I'm not even sure" I said looking at every part of his face.

Fuck I love him so fucking much.. I think.. I don't even know him but I know I need him..
GOD!!! this is not normal.

his hand was on mine. his fingers just drew pictures on the back of my hand.

"Thank you Gerard"
"... What for Frankie?"
"For believing in me... I've never had that before"
"well you had better get use to it"
"Yeah?"
"Yeah"

"...Gerard?"
"yeah Frankie?"
"If I come between you and Mikey, Just tell me and I'll go"
"Don't be so stupid Frankie"
"But you both seem to really care for each other and I dont want my invasian tearing you both apart"
"You wont Honey, dont worry" I said brushing his hair from his face
"well if you want me to go Gerard, just tell me"
"It won't ever-"
"when you get sick of me Gerard.. Tell me"
"Ok Frankie" I said just agreeing with him.

"So Frankie. You've gotta tell me about what happened"
"Well.. When you left.."
"Yeah, keep talking"

"My parents came back in, And started yelling at me and blabbing about all this other shit, Then the doctors told me I have to go to theater to get stiched up"
"What did your parents say Hun?"
"That I'm making a huge mistake, And they'll find where you live and take me-" His eyes began watering.
"I don't want to leave you Gerard, I dont want to be taken from you" He said with tears falling from his beautiful little eyes.
"They wont find you Frankie, I wont let them take you.. not on my watch"
"..Your not wearing a watch"
"Excatly"

I kissed his forehead.

"When are you going to the theater place?"
"uh tonight, The doctors are coming back soon"
"Ok, Well I'll be with you as far as I possiably can"
"Really?" He said smiling at me

"Yeah, Really"
"I never thought some one like you was real" Frankie said shutting his eyes.
"Why so?"
"Because.. You are everything I dreamed of as a friend"
"Well I'm glad to hear that"
"I'm glad to say that" He said re opening his eyes.

"Mr Iero- Oh, Mr Way. Hope we're not inturupting"
"No, we're not doing anything" I said moving from Frankie.

"No, stay" he wispered in my ear.
"Ok" I said laying back down.

"Now. We are taking you into theater at 12:45"
"Hes going to be fine isn't he?" I asked becoming concerned about the saftey of Frankie.
"uh, Yes. We just have to stich up the wounds that are rather deep, We would do them with him awake except they are too deep"
"Oh" I said looking at him.

"sorry Gerard" Frankie wispered at me.
"Its ok"

"Now Frankie, We just need you to sign some consent forms"
"ok" he said scribbling 'Frankie' along the dotted line.
"So, we're gonna take you into get preped now, So are you going to come Gerard?" he asked in my direction.

I looked down to Frankie who had all of a sudden gone pale.
Who had all of a sudden gotten frightened.

"Absolutely" I said looking into his eyes.
'thank you' he mouthed to me.
"your very welcome Frankie" I said kissing his forehead.
"now, you can eather walk or go on your bed" Mr Doctor boy said to Frankie.

"I would like to walk please" he said standing up
"come 'ere Baby" I said taking his hand, Sensing his sudden change of spirit.

He looked into my eyes and I knew he didn't want me to leave him alone, but knew I had too.

"I'll be thinking of you" I said smiling
"I'll be dreaming of you" he smiled back.

I put my left hand in his far back pocket of his jeans, He doing the same to me.
Every now and again he would rest his head on my shoulder mumbling some language I could never understand.
Once we were in the theater waiting room I sat on a chair pulling Frankie ontop of me.

"I...I-, I'm so scared Gerard" He cried into my chest.
"Baby, dont be. They are gonna make you all better-" before I got a chance to finish he butted in
"But if i had never of done it..." He began.

"If you had never of done it.. would have been good, But spending this time with you Frankie has proved how much we really do care for each other Honey"
I smiled trying to lift the mood.

"Yeah.. I guess your right"
"For once, yeah I am"

I kissed his forehead as he bowed his head.

Alot of snarky remarks emerged from the waiting room, That didn't mean jack shit to me.
I love this boy right here on my knees. I had found the one.. I mean 'THE ONE'

"Ok Frankie. We'll have to say good bye to Gerard for know, its time to go" His doctor said.
his hand squeezing mine.

"Babe.. your gonna break my hand" I said politly.
"I'm sorry" he wispered.
"Come on, lets go get you fixed up" I smiled.
"Your so brave" He said walking towards the doors.

I looked to the doctors.

"uhh can I please have some seconds with Frankie?"
"Very quickly"
"Yeah.."

"Whats up Gerard?"
"I just want you to know.. I'm gonna be in your room when you get back"
"I know you will be Gerard... Your allways there for me" He said in a failed attempt to hold back tears.
"And I allways will be" I said pulling him into one of my hugs.

His arms squeezed at my waist and I took in the scent of his beautiful smell.
I lifted his head up at his chin and looked into his eyes.

"your so beautiful Frankie" I said kissing his lips.

His hand at the back of my head pushing my lips more fearcly onto his.
His tounge entwined with mine.

It was so amazing. The way that everything had worked out to be so amazing.

"I am very sorry to break this up but Frankie, they are waiting on you"
"Ok." He mumbled against my lips.

"Frankie?"
"Yeah Gerard?" he asked back.
"I'll see you soon yeah?"
"yip, I'm gonna hold you to that"

He turned to walk away I grabbed his arm and kissed him so softly on his beautiful lips

"And one more thing..."
"What Gerard?" he said, not wanting to leave me.
"I..I-"
"Mr Iero, please we have to-"
"Just wait. My Gerards telling me something" he snapped then turned back to me. "Continue Gerard"
"No, I'll tell you when you get out"
"No, You'll tell me now" he insisted.

"I love you Frank Iero" I said turning around and walking out.. Not wanting to see his reaction.

I went and ordered another coffee then sat in Frankies room, Where I continued to draw my sign for him.
It was gonna have his name dripping in blood. With a chain around it and a giant padlock at the front.
In the backround I was going to have a streached out picture of his guitars where they crossed over eachother at the neck
Pansy being at the front, Bella being at the back.

I began drafting it out.
The F being fancy and the top line streching across the whole rest of the 'rankie'
I had finished his name.. It was possiably saticfying.
Then came the padlock. It was a large bulky chain the padlock was rather large also.

It was at that very second I decided I was going to have the key hanging from Pansy

Speeking of who, I got to work on drawing her from the very top of my imagination.
Trying to remember what this guitar looked like. The guitar Frankie would do absolutely anything for
I remembered I had drawen her on another piece of paper.

I went to the roses I got Frankie and took the orange drawing of Pansy
Observing it I began drawing the outline of her... Once it looked like her I finished the inside with complete strings, Nobs, Handles.. Everything.
Bella was a bit harder.. I'd only seen her once, She hardly ever came out of her case.

I drew what I remembered.. Knowing I didn't have to have it finished excatly today.

My phone buzzing brought me from my thoughts.

"Hello?"
"Gee?"
"Yeah.. Hi Mikey Whats up?"
"uhh.. can you pass a message on for me?"
"To who?" I asked nervously.
"Fran-"
"If its threatning you can fucking forget it!"
"No, Gee, its not. its about school.. is he okay? he hasn't been at school for a while"

fuck! should I tell him. I mean this is partly his fault and all

"No hes not ok Mikey"
"...Why..W-whats wrong?" He asked. I senced the scaredness in his voice
"He's in hospital, partly thanks to you and your amazing friends" I said harshly.
"O- Oh my god Gerard...I'- I'm so sorry" he said sounding like he was crying.
The phone got hung up and hearing my brother cry was enough to set me off.

I thought about what he and his dropkick friends were really capable of... They put the boy I love in hospital. If i wasnt a passovist I would kick their
asses!.

I took some tissues from Frankies night stand and dried my eyes.
Then I looked at my wall paper on my phone to see me and Frankie were the most perfect looking couple in the whole entire world!