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Three day have past since I left the padded room, every minute I worry that I will go back into that room. Today there was a storm the thunder was getting louder by the second, I could feel it within my bones the power would be going out any minute. I kept looking outside seeing the lighting flash light blue color across the sky. I had my knees up to my chin with my arms warp around my legs, I was trying to stay clam.


In my mind, I knew I should go run to Gerard’s room where I knew I would be safe but I needed to do this I needed to face my biggest fear. Before I could even blink the lights went out darkness was all around me I could feel my hands start to shake I could feel the fear building up in me, I was not moving. I had to get all the fear thoughts out of my mind; I had to get over my fear.


My mind was yelling in my ear telling I needed to go insane my heart was beating beyond fast I could feel the insane feeling building within me. I had to stay clam I could not let fear win, three minutes had gone by and I have no gone insane.


I could feel my heart beating on my chest I thought it would jump out any minute I was not going to let fear win, my hands started to feel numb my breath became heavy. I could not take it any long I had to go insane I got off my bed I started to bang on the door like an insane person. My hands filled with pain after beating on the door I stop and slowly walk back.



I lost I let feat take over I felt angry that I had let fear win. I felt empty I tried so hard to not let fear win, and it happen anyway. I could no longer do this I could not keep letting fear win I knew if I kept going insane like I was I would be put back in the padded room.

I open my door and ran out of my room. I ran towards Gerard’s room the place I should have gone to in the first place, I ran inside not bothering to knock first.

“Frank what’s wrong, “He asks while walking towards me.

“I tried so hard not to let fear win but I could not take it any longer, I kept banging on the door until my hands went more numb. I will never get over this fear, “I said while looking at him with sadness in my eyes.

“Frank you cannot get over your fear just like that it does take time. However, I do promise one day you will be able to get over your fear, “He replied while hugging me. I felt safe in his arms it was the only place I ever felt safe.

“I hope I can, can I stay here with you tonight I cannot be alone tonight, “I said hoping he would not mind.

“Of course you can, you do not have to ask, “He replied.

I was afraid to go back to my room in fear I would go more insane that I already had,we went over to his bed to lay down. I was beyond tired I stayed up all night in fear the doctor would come and take me back into the padded room. I snuggled up to him wanting to feel safe again, my eyes were getting heavy. I could feel his arms warp around, before I knew it I felt asleep without having any fear.


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