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"Rushing into anything?" I ask, confused.
Gerard just looks at me.
"I have no idea what I'm doing." I say "All I know is I think you're fucking awesome and I like you and I've never liked a guy before so this is all new and fucking scary for me. So I have no idea what we'd rush into or what we're going to do. I don't know anything Gerard! I don't know any-"
He stops my blabbering my kissing me on the lips. We smile at each other afterwards.
"It's okay." He says.
He is so great. I don't anyone would understand just how fucking great he truly is. I don't even know his last name!
"Gee!" I say, sitting up quickly. "I don't know your last name!"
"Gee? No one's ever called me Gee before." He smiles. "My last name is Way. i'm presuming yours is Iero?"
"Yes." I reply.
We're both sitting on his bed, leaning against the wall, our legs slightly intertwined, as well as our fingers.
All we seem to do is smile at each other. His magnificent smile is picture perfect.
"Frankie?" Gee asks me.
Frankie? That's cute. I like that.
"Yes Gee?" I say
"When Travis said 'look under his wristbands to see what a true screw up he is', Frankie, I want you to show me your wrists."
My face drops instantly. Gerard wants to see my wrists. There's a reason I cover them with random wristbands and bracelets. My wrists are not pretty. They're stockpiled with memories in the form of hideous scars. Some small, some big, some fresh, some old.
I shake my head at Gee's request. I know he knows what's there, why does he have to see it too?
"Frankie?" He says again.
I begin to slowly take my wristbands off one by one, and each one that come off equals another tear in both Gerard's and my eyes.
"I can't do this to you Gee." I say throughout tears.
Gerard turns to me, cups my face in his hands and we kiss lightly once more.
"I think we should tell each other everything." he says.
We spend the next two hours discussing our lives.
Gerard moved to this school because he got expelled from his previous one for knocking some kid out because he found out he was gay and taunted him for it. That's another thing, Gerard knows who he is, he know's he's gay, he know's he's an outcast, he knows he's good at drawing. Whereas I, I don't know who I am at all. I mean, I like Gerard, like a lot, but does that make me gay, or just bi? I don't know what I'm good at, except maybe guitar. But no one's actually ever heard me play so I have no feedback.
Gerard tells me that his parents divorced when he was seven and he only lives with his mum and Mikey. I tell him I've used self harm as a way out of my thoughts for the last three years and that I live with both of my parents and I have no idea how I'm going to tell them I like a boy. Which is where a new topic arose between Gerard and I.
"Hey, I don't really know how relationships work. I've never really been in a proper one. Are we like going out?" I ask Gee.
His face instantly lights up, he's almost glowing.
"Frankie...Will you go out with me?" Gee asks.
"Oh my gosh yes!" I say happily and I blush.
The I lean over and kiss him. With tongue. An it's the best kiss I've ever had. Gerard makes me feel things I've never felt before, he makes me happy.
I know it's only early days yet...But, I think I love him.