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Thank you to all who are still with me on this story, I have an idea for a horror story which I will be looking into with more detail soon. Hope you are having a nice summer and enjoy the newest installment!
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Why did he have to always be around when I was in a good mood? I dislike the fact that I can see him and it just reminds me of everything I ran away from. My life was beginning to spiral downwards because of the choices he made and now I feel guilty for getting out of that mess? Why should I have to feel like this? He made the wrong choices but now it's coming back to bite me in the ass! Well I am sorry but you were the fucking asshole who decided to drink away your pain. I couldn't fricken stop him, I tried, god knows I tried! It never worked the asshole thought he should have gotten away with what he wanted, how is that fair? Why did I have to watch the person I loved slowly kill himself?
"God, your so fucking inconsiderate, and selfish, drugged up, alcoholic asshole!" I screamed. Oh shit. I said that out loud. Any crew members who were nearby stopped dead and looked at me... Shit, Gerard heard what I had said and the look on his face could kill me right now, he was so heartbroken... so hurt. SHIT!
I looked down and just kept walking towards the dressing rooms, where the guys were. I couldn't face anyone right now, the party wasn't looking too much like a good idea... I just wanted to go back to the bus and go to my bunk and cry myself to sleep, but why should I feel bad? I never meant for it to be said, well yeah I shouldn't have said that but I never meant it. I just can't explain to him why I left without him having some defenses up about his drinking. I can't deal with unless he's going to accept his problems and change, I mean I thought me leaving would have been enough to make him change his ways? Or maybe it gave him more reason to hate his life. See in his position he has the world at his feet. He is in an up and coming band! They seem to have quite a big fan base already! I mean I'm in a sorta same position, but I'm not taking this for granted. I love this! I don't want to be drugged up and drunk for every show. I want to remember every single moment because it's something I'll keep forever, even if we don't truly make it, I'll always have the memories. I can't keep thinking about this.
Gerard's POV
When will this end? I can't stand feeling like this anymore. It's easy enough for her because she moved on and is now with Josh. Josh. I really don't like this kid. He seems annoyed at me when he has nothing to do with what happened with me and Hayley. I just can't shake the feeling that he's a smug bastard who is like shoving it in my face that he has her now. I want to show her so much that I can ditch the drugs but I don't think it will matter to her anymore. I've hurt her too many times. She doesn't want me anymore and I don't think I can really deal with it. I need space from this tour. If I had of known who 'Paramore' were then I would not have agreed to this tour... I would even have suggested going to rehab. I know it's pointless because they all think I'm off drugs, well Bob knows the truth. There would have been a tension with everything I done, everyone would be on edge thinking I would snap at any moment.
"Gee, what's up. Usually by now you'd be on your 5th beer?" Frank slurred at me half drunk.
"I just don't feel like getting pissed so quickly tonight, okay" I replied.
"Oh, your waiting for Hayley to get here, buddy she's been here for an hour already! God, you are meant to be like obsessed with her and you didn't even notice her walk in!" Frank Giggled like a little school girl... Which is normal for the dwarf when he is intoxicated.
"Yeah, she's with her boyfriend, Frank so I'm not going to go over to her and be like 'Hey you wanna fuck?'" I spat at Frank who just giggled.
"Whatever dude, do what you want but hurt her and we will kick yo' butt!" Frank said as he started to walk away, probably to find his girlfriend.
Maybe I should go and talk to her, she's alone right now, she also looks very drunk... That's not good, she never was good when drunk. I started to walk over towards her and she didn't even notice me coming. I smiled down at her and she just giggled, typical. She was wasted.
"Heeeey GEEEEEEEE, come and sit down" She slurred her words. I now know how it feels to watch someone you love drunk and not like it.
"Okay, if you wish" I smiled and sat down next to her.
"So, what's up dude? you know I didn't mean to say what I did earlier, I was thinking I think and I feel like maybe I shouldn't have to feel guilty for what happened. I wanted you to realize what you were doing to yourself and myself and stop but it didn't work and I regretted it sooooo much because now I know if i hadn't left then you would have gotten better. But Paramore wouldn't have been made so now I have such a big dilemma! Should I be sad that I missed what we had or should I be happy that Paramore are getting a chance!" She sighed. This wasn't just the alcohol, I knew this was the real Hayley showing through. I just smiled.
"Hayley, don't feel guilty anymore. I just want to move on, yes I have questions but we will deal with that in time. I just don't want to not be friends at least anymore" I said taking her hand. She giggled and said she'd be right back.
True to her word she returned about ten minutes later, drunker than she was before she left. Great.
"So Gee I think we should like dance or something I'm bored of just talking" She said grabbing my hand and pulling me up off my feet and into the crowd of dancing people, before I could even consider refusing.
The night went on like this, dancing and drinking. She was drunk so why can't I be? We had the best drunken conversations ever like: who would win in a fight, spiderman or batman! (I said batman but she went for spiderman), who would swim faster a horse or a dog? who had the best powers and who had the worst, best band of all time and my ultimate favourite! celebrity crushes! I found it so cute that her celebrity crush was Johnny Depp, I mean he's definitely my guy crush but it was cute. She told me her girl crush was Megan Fox. Which is hot. She was so embarrassed to tell me that one. It had been so long since we had talked so randomly and full of such good emotions. Happiness. We kept drinking and then it got to a point where I do not remember.
Mikey's POV
Last night was freaking awesome. So many good people, such a good atmosphere! Alicia had really enjoyed herself too. She needed to get rid of some of the stress. The last few months have been difficult. What with hiding her pregnancy then having to deal with the miscarriage. Life was really starting to get down on me, but then this tour came around and it felt like an opening to a new, happier chapter.
I rolled over and looked at the sleeping beauty next to me, one day I'll marry this woman. I smiled watching her sleep so peacefully. Nothing could take this woman from me. Now that I think about it I never really seen Gee last night. He must have gone back to the bus early, I'll go see if he is awake. I wanna talk to him about a song idea I had.
That's odd, I've never seen the any of the girls wearing a New Found Glory T-shirt before... Or red skinnies with 'Paramore Bitch' written down the leg...I thought to myself picking up the jeans and T-shirt. Gee must have hooked up with someone last night. Someone who likes New Found Glory and Paramore. Oh Shit. No, don't think like that, I'm just jumping to conclusions. I started walking down the isle towards Gee's bunk. I hoped to god that I was wrong.
There she was, lying in Gerard's arms, half naked. Who knows what happened between them but it didn't seem like they had a slumber party then went to sleep. I swallowed down and moved on. Thinking I was the only one up until I got out into the kitchen area.
"You seen too?" Frank asked, Looking up from his cereal.
"Yeah, you guys seen?" They all nodded in unison, looking away uncomfortable with what they had all seen.
"Hayley, wouldn't cheat on Josh" Bob said staring into his coffee.
"We don't know what Hayley would do for Gerard, we didn't expect her to even talk to him after everything. So we can't rule out anything anymore" I said looking at my feet.
"Okay they are still very asleep. Go and get Alicia, grab some clothes and let's scram. We don't want to look as if we know anything. Hayley might be embarrassed, and he might feel guilty and tell the truth. Go" Ray said rationally.
I did what I was told and we made it out of there before they woke up. Gerard had some explaining to do.
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So what d'ya think happened?
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Why did he have to always be around when I was in a good mood? I dislike the fact that I can see him and it just reminds me of everything I ran away from. My life was beginning to spiral downwards because of the choices he made and now I feel guilty for getting out of that mess? Why should I have to feel like this? He made the wrong choices but now it's coming back to bite me in the ass! Well I am sorry but you were the fucking asshole who decided to drink away your pain. I couldn't fricken stop him, I tried, god knows I tried! It never worked the asshole thought he should have gotten away with what he wanted, how is that fair? Why did I have to watch the person I loved slowly kill himself?
"God, your so fucking inconsiderate, and selfish, drugged up, alcoholic asshole!" I screamed. Oh shit. I said that out loud. Any crew members who were nearby stopped dead and looked at me... Shit, Gerard heard what I had said and the look on his face could kill me right now, he was so heartbroken... so hurt. SHIT!
I looked down and just kept walking towards the dressing rooms, where the guys were. I couldn't face anyone right now, the party wasn't looking too much like a good idea... I just wanted to go back to the bus and go to my bunk and cry myself to sleep, but why should I feel bad? I never meant for it to be said, well yeah I shouldn't have said that but I never meant it. I just can't explain to him why I left without him having some defenses up about his drinking. I can't deal with unless he's going to accept his problems and change, I mean I thought me leaving would have been enough to make him change his ways? Or maybe it gave him more reason to hate his life. See in his position he has the world at his feet. He is in an up and coming band! They seem to have quite a big fan base already! I mean I'm in a sorta same position, but I'm not taking this for granted. I love this! I don't want to be drugged up and drunk for every show. I want to remember every single moment because it's something I'll keep forever, even if we don't truly make it, I'll always have the memories. I can't keep thinking about this.
Gerard's POV
When will this end? I can't stand feeling like this anymore. It's easy enough for her because she moved on and is now with Josh. Josh. I really don't like this kid. He seems annoyed at me when he has nothing to do with what happened with me and Hayley. I just can't shake the feeling that he's a smug bastard who is like shoving it in my face that he has her now. I want to show her so much that I can ditch the drugs but I don't think it will matter to her anymore. I've hurt her too many times. She doesn't want me anymore and I don't think I can really deal with it. I need space from this tour. If I had of known who 'Paramore' were then I would not have agreed to this tour... I would even have suggested going to rehab. I know it's pointless because they all think I'm off drugs, well Bob knows the truth. There would have been a tension with everything I done, everyone would be on edge thinking I would snap at any moment.
"Gee, what's up. Usually by now you'd be on your 5th beer?" Frank slurred at me half drunk.
"I just don't feel like getting pissed so quickly tonight, okay" I replied.
"Oh, your waiting for Hayley to get here, buddy she's been here for an hour already! God, you are meant to be like obsessed with her and you didn't even notice her walk in!" Frank Giggled like a little school girl... Which is normal for the dwarf when he is intoxicated.
"Yeah, she's with her boyfriend, Frank so I'm not going to go over to her and be like 'Hey you wanna fuck?'" I spat at Frank who just giggled.
"Whatever dude, do what you want but hurt her and we will kick yo' butt!" Frank said as he started to walk away, probably to find his girlfriend.
Maybe I should go and talk to her, she's alone right now, she also looks very drunk... That's not good, she never was good when drunk. I started to walk over towards her and she didn't even notice me coming. I smiled down at her and she just giggled, typical. She was wasted.
"Heeeey GEEEEEEEE, come and sit down" She slurred her words. I now know how it feels to watch someone you love drunk and not like it.
"Okay, if you wish" I smiled and sat down next to her.
"So, what's up dude? you know I didn't mean to say what I did earlier, I was thinking I think and I feel like maybe I shouldn't have to feel guilty for what happened. I wanted you to realize what you were doing to yourself and myself and stop but it didn't work and I regretted it sooooo much because now I know if i hadn't left then you would have gotten better. But Paramore wouldn't have been made so now I have such a big dilemma! Should I be sad that I missed what we had or should I be happy that Paramore are getting a chance!" She sighed. This wasn't just the alcohol, I knew this was the real Hayley showing through. I just smiled.
"Hayley, don't feel guilty anymore. I just want to move on, yes I have questions but we will deal with that in time. I just don't want to not be friends at least anymore" I said taking her hand. She giggled and said she'd be right back.
True to her word she returned about ten minutes later, drunker than she was before she left. Great.
"So Gee I think we should like dance or something I'm bored of just talking" She said grabbing my hand and pulling me up off my feet and into the crowd of dancing people, before I could even consider refusing.
The night went on like this, dancing and drinking. She was drunk so why can't I be? We had the best drunken conversations ever like: who would win in a fight, spiderman or batman! (I said batman but she went for spiderman), who would swim faster a horse or a dog? who had the best powers and who had the worst, best band of all time and my ultimate favourite! celebrity crushes! I found it so cute that her celebrity crush was Johnny Depp, I mean he's definitely my guy crush but it was cute. She told me her girl crush was Megan Fox. Which is hot. She was so embarrassed to tell me that one. It had been so long since we had talked so randomly and full of such good emotions. Happiness. We kept drinking and then it got to a point where I do not remember.
Mikey's POV
Last night was freaking awesome. So many good people, such a good atmosphere! Alicia had really enjoyed herself too. She needed to get rid of some of the stress. The last few months have been difficult. What with hiding her pregnancy then having to deal with the miscarriage. Life was really starting to get down on me, but then this tour came around and it felt like an opening to a new, happier chapter.
I rolled over and looked at the sleeping beauty next to me, one day I'll marry this woman. I smiled watching her sleep so peacefully. Nothing could take this woman from me. Now that I think about it I never really seen Gee last night. He must have gone back to the bus early, I'll go see if he is awake. I wanna talk to him about a song idea I had.
That's odd, I've never seen the any of the girls wearing a New Found Glory T-shirt before... Or red skinnies with 'Paramore Bitch' written down the leg...I thought to myself picking up the jeans and T-shirt. Gee must have hooked up with someone last night. Someone who likes New Found Glory and Paramore. Oh Shit. No, don't think like that, I'm just jumping to conclusions. I started walking down the isle towards Gee's bunk. I hoped to god that I was wrong.
There she was, lying in Gerard's arms, half naked. Who knows what happened between them but it didn't seem like they had a slumber party then went to sleep. I swallowed down and moved on. Thinking I was the only one up until I got out into the kitchen area.
"You seen too?" Frank asked, Looking up from his cereal.
"Yeah, you guys seen?" They all nodded in unison, looking away uncomfortable with what they had all seen.
"Hayley, wouldn't cheat on Josh" Bob said staring into his coffee.
"We don't know what Hayley would do for Gerard, we didn't expect her to even talk to him after everything. So we can't rule out anything anymore" I said looking at my feet.
"Okay they are still very asleep. Go and get Alicia, grab some clothes and let's scram. We don't want to look as if we know anything. Hayley might be embarrassed, and he might feel guilty and tell the truth. Go" Ray said rationally.
I did what I was told and we made it out of there before they woke up. Gerard had some explaining to do.
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So what d'ya think happened?
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