Categories > Celebrities > My Chemical Romance > I'm okay now....(thats a lie)
I smiled after I had gotten some food into my belly it was wonderful even though I did pick the cheapest thing on the menu cause I didn't want to use a lot of mikeys money I mean that would be rude right?? Well I atleast I had gotten some food and a little time with mikey....even though im tearing up a straw right now from my nerves as mikey was drinking his coffee waiting for the waiter to come back so that he could get the check....
"why are you so nerves Halloween?? Warning is fine shes with frank...." mikey said scooting closer to me and I cringed slightly causing him to stop moving and to look at me
"I don't want her hurt mikey I really don't and her being alone is making me nerves....I guess we will have to come out about our past....even though it hurts to think about it we just want to block everything about it out of our minds and pretend to be fine when where not because the truth is.....that Where not Okay" I say looking at my arms sadly as he hugged me with a soft sigh
"you both used to cut??"
"yeah but we realized that it wasn't helping so we both helped each other to stop....the memories with our past is left on us permently..."
"well you to stopped and you to should be happy that your not still hurting....even though it was self inflicted...you both are strong so when you past comes out we will all listen and be there for you both..."
"yeah...I know..." I trial smiling a little before whispering..." in a dream you appeared for a while you where here so I keep sleeping just to keep you with me ill draw a map, connect the dots with all the memories that I've got what I'm missing ill keep reliving..." I look up from my wrists getting up quickly making mikey look at me
"I've got it!!!" I nearly scream as mikey pays the bill and runs out behind me as I run into the smelly buss into the back where the introments are held picking up a random guitar and strumming a few chords feeding my idea as I grabb a sharpie and some paper writing it down fastly as mikey looks at me slightly panting
"hey whats wrong Halloween? I say you and mikey run threw the buss like a bat out of hell...." she said stepping into the room slightly before I strummed sumthing else out working my magic fastly on the guitar running threw a few more lyrics before writing them down and making a black slash on my arm with the sharpie with warning seeing as I was busy she stepped out of the room pacing the hallway inpatiently
I growl out marking out sumthing on my paper then marking out the slash making it into a X then going back to the beat I was playing on the guitar as mikey sat there on the little couch watching me curiously intill the guys walked and his hand flew up to his mouth telling them to be quite as I growled out at the noise strumming sumthing then writing it down with a smile and I sigh as I started it from the beginning again as every one else sat down waiting there turn
" in a dream you appeared for a while you where here so I keep sleeping just to keep you with me ill draw a map, connect the dots with all the memories that I've got what I'm missing ill keep reliving.. I keep dreaming hunting down the hunger that's deep inside me never to feed my life the painless emotion that weve swallowed down a hundred times let me breath let me see I'm beginning to fill the pressure of every one around....
I've stomped down everything important to me I let the dreams relive in my fantasy its almost sickening to me that I would get this Side affect from feeling so pure into my mind ill let you peek if only you set me free....
I've tooken this knife to me a hundred times so pointless in fear never really finishing the project it's the spell you have over me its almost sickening to me never let me breath never wake me from this pointless dream its reality for me.....please don't make me listen cause I'm dead to you for now.....
I've stomped down everything important to me I let the dreams relive in my fantasy its almost sickening to me I would get this side affect from feeling so pure into my mind ill let you peek if only you set me free....
As I drag myself around you look into the ground the gapping hole you left was finally left bleeding broken stiched then ripped...do you fill better now as im crying on the ground does it finnaly make the top number one.....do I make the top number one...or is it just plain...personal game....." I trial off smiling letting the final chord hit and I smile circling the 5 slash on my arm as warning walked in smiling at me
"it's a wnner isn't it Halloween I heard it" warning said with a small jump and clapping of her hands as she ran over to me with a smile
"yeah it is....but theres a few things that I have to work out with it...but besides yeah it's a winner" I say putting the guitar down on its stand and turning around grabbing a thick black red and orange leather book and the sheet of music with a pen walking over to the couch finally looking at who was all there with a mad blush...
"umm yeah I had a major brain storm what of it" I say as I copy it down all nice a neatly as the guys practiced
"why are you so nerves Halloween?? Warning is fine shes with frank...." mikey said scooting closer to me and I cringed slightly causing him to stop moving and to look at me
"I don't want her hurt mikey I really don't and her being alone is making me nerves....I guess we will have to come out about our past....even though it hurts to think about it we just want to block everything about it out of our minds and pretend to be fine when where not because the truth is.....that Where not Okay" I say looking at my arms sadly as he hugged me with a soft sigh
"you both used to cut??"
"yeah but we realized that it wasn't helping so we both helped each other to stop....the memories with our past is left on us permently..."
"well you to stopped and you to should be happy that your not still hurting....even though it was self inflicted...you both are strong so when you past comes out we will all listen and be there for you both..."
"yeah...I know..." I trial smiling a little before whispering..." in a dream you appeared for a while you where here so I keep sleeping just to keep you with me ill draw a map, connect the dots with all the memories that I've got what I'm missing ill keep reliving..." I look up from my wrists getting up quickly making mikey look at me
"I've got it!!!" I nearly scream as mikey pays the bill and runs out behind me as I run into the smelly buss into the back where the introments are held picking up a random guitar and strumming a few chords feeding my idea as I grabb a sharpie and some paper writing it down fastly as mikey looks at me slightly panting
"hey whats wrong Halloween? I say you and mikey run threw the buss like a bat out of hell...." she said stepping into the room slightly before I strummed sumthing else out working my magic fastly on the guitar running threw a few more lyrics before writing them down and making a black slash on my arm with the sharpie with warning seeing as I was busy she stepped out of the room pacing the hallway inpatiently
I growl out marking out sumthing on my paper then marking out the slash making it into a X then going back to the beat I was playing on the guitar as mikey sat there on the little couch watching me curiously intill the guys walked and his hand flew up to his mouth telling them to be quite as I growled out at the noise strumming sumthing then writing it down with a smile and I sigh as I started it from the beginning again as every one else sat down waiting there turn
" in a dream you appeared for a while you where here so I keep sleeping just to keep you with me ill draw a map, connect the dots with all the memories that I've got what I'm missing ill keep reliving.. I keep dreaming hunting down the hunger that's deep inside me never to feed my life the painless emotion that weve swallowed down a hundred times let me breath let me see I'm beginning to fill the pressure of every one around....
I've stomped down everything important to me I let the dreams relive in my fantasy its almost sickening to me that I would get this Side affect from feeling so pure into my mind ill let you peek if only you set me free....
I've tooken this knife to me a hundred times so pointless in fear never really finishing the project it's the spell you have over me its almost sickening to me never let me breath never wake me from this pointless dream its reality for me.....please don't make me listen cause I'm dead to you for now.....
I've stomped down everything important to me I let the dreams relive in my fantasy its almost sickening to me I would get this side affect from feeling so pure into my mind ill let you peek if only you set me free....
As I drag myself around you look into the ground the gapping hole you left was finally left bleeding broken stiched then ripped...do you fill better now as im crying on the ground does it finnaly make the top number one.....do I make the top number one...or is it just plain...personal game....." I trial off smiling letting the final chord hit and I smile circling the 5 slash on my arm as warning walked in smiling at me
"it's a wnner isn't it Halloween I heard it" warning said with a small jump and clapping of her hands as she ran over to me with a smile
"yeah it is....but theres a few things that I have to work out with it...but besides yeah it's a winner" I say putting the guitar down on its stand and turning around grabbing a thick black red and orange leather book and the sheet of music with a pen walking over to the couch finally looking at who was all there with a mad blush...
"umm yeah I had a major brain storm what of it" I say as I copy it down all nice a neatly as the guys practiced
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