(#) killjoy_blackrose 2011-12-23i'm probably making an idiot out of myself, but this is me trying to help: there'll always be cunts. everyone says you shouldn't let it get to you. they forget that you can't just control what gets to you that easily. it's about knowing you're better than that. that guys' opinions don't count in the long run and you can always just talk on here. lots of people, including me, will listen. -k
Author's responseI know there'll always be cunts, but I can't stop it majorly affecting me. I walk home from school every night crying, and I write these. There are tons of these on my phone, but there are some that contain really personal shit, so I'm not uploading them. I really do know I'm better than them inside of me, but in real life, I really am no better. Thank you for trying to help, I'm glad someone noticed :)
(#) killjoy_blackrose 2011-12-23i know what you mean. there're some major dickheads in my life, but i can stand it because i have 2 awesome friends. so if you need someone to talk to, i'm here:)
and you are better than them. you really are. shit's hard to believe at times, but if you believe you can pull though, you /can/.
Author's responseI love you :) lol you're awesome
(#) dropthedaggerlaura 2011-12-23First of all, i actually quite... We'll... FUCK THIS. Ok the shit is I hate people, I honestly do. They screw things up and are pretty much the most disgusting waste of motherfucking space there is out there. But the thing is, we have TI deal with the cunts, the bitches, the fakers. We don't have a GODanm choice. If I got a hay penny every single fucking time that someone said they felt bad for me or I was the way I am because my parents died I would not have to get an education. I have a fake, homophobic "mother" that absolutely hates me for my parents dying and her being stuck with me. My best and only friend killed herself exactly 432 days ago. I can barely go five minutes at my school without someone telling me to "go cut myself" or "pull an Amanda" ( the cruel term they use for my best friends suicide). Sorry I'm off track, lost in my own sea of hate. But the main point is, they are complete idiots who don't realize That being better, More original, Will pay off and earn uou much More respect. Please try and ignore thèse assholes and pull through... I réalise im just a stranger but please be strong. This may seem creepy but if you Everest need to talk, just email me of ya Want. At: firstname.lastname@example.org k?
Love from Lauren.
And sorry for bitching, its been a Rough 432 days
Author's responseFirst of all, and I know you probably get this from a lot of people, but I am genuinely sorry your friend killed herself. One of my best friends killed himself in front of me on Skype. He kept going on about "the one he loved" and how "she would never love him back", and just before he died, he told me it was me. The fucking killer thing was that I was totally in love with him too, and we could've been together, but, he's gone... And it's fucking unbearable...
Thank you for your e-mail, I might use it at some point.
(#) XxPerfectTomorrowxX email@example.com
Anytime, for any purpose.
Reading this was really touching and I'm always really sad to read things like this... That really is unbearable pain.
The thing is... you're tolerating it. It's sad & really tough to live in this world and no one knows why others have to make things harder. I couldn't explain. I just really can't.
I'm really ashamed to say this but I've never been a very good friend or a good family member.
I've got so much to make up for in this world. I've been a terrible person and I know I've probably made some peoples lives hell... I can't even explain why so I'm apologizing to you for anything bad that has been said to you or hasn't been said to make you feel like this.
I'm so so very sorry.
It takes a lot to air your feelings like this though so kudos to being a strong individual. Take that strength and run with it. =)
And if you can't?
We are all here. I'm always around.
Author's responseThank you, that means so much. I'm feeling a lot better now than I was then, and I've found a way of dealing with them.
- Hey, it's okay. I know life can be shit at times but you really shouldn't kill yourself.
Stand up fucking tall, don't let them see your back, and take my fucking hand and never be afraid again =]
If you ever want to vent or anything just email me at firstname.lastname@example.org
Venting can really help sometimes.
=D Stay strong
Author's responseI see what you did there :) yeah, I realise now that it's not worth kms over, and I'm getting happier by the day :) thanks for responding, and for caring :) just knowing that someone cares enough to listen to my daft little problems helps :)
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