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Mikey POV

Squeezing my eyes shut tightly and my heart pounding erratically I awaited my fate.

‘Night night Michael.’ He grimaced, my eyes watering, fear swamping my trembling frame.

Unexpectedly, the rest room door flung over, as a nurse of some sort blinked at us, surprised. Relieved, I glared at Mark, my body tensing up as he leant into me and kissed me softly on my static lips.

‘Sorry miss, I haven’t seen him in ages, we’ll be off now.’ He smiled sweetly, winking at me and grasping my sweaty hand, tugging me out of the door, leaving the nurse to stare at us bewildered.

Still holding my hand he halted abruptly in the corridor and rested his heavy hands on my shoulders, shaking me slightly.

‘You got lucky then Michael, wait till you get fucking out of here and I’ll have you.’ He hissed at me, venom glinting in his grey eyes.

With that he scuttled off, disappearing down the twist of corridors, leaving me scared and vulnerable. Scratching my head uneasily I dragged myself slowly down the corridor, terrified he was going to jump out of the next corner and slice my throat.

I had to see Gerard.

Quivering, I kept my head down and hugged my hopeless body as I walked to Gee’s room, my anxiety levels increasing to a dangerous level. I hope this doesn’t provoke another episode from him.

Stopping outside his room the door opened revealing Dr Threller, Gerard’s old psychiatrist.

‘Michael! Lovely to see you again, gosh you look pale, what’s the matter? He asked warmly, his eyes full of concern.

‘Oh nothing, I just feel a bit ill.’ I lied.

Carefully analyzing me he nodded slowly and told me Frankie was in there with Gee, and informed me he was due another visit in a couple of days. Exchanging goodbyes he left.

I can’t tell Gerard…He’s going through enough; he can’t have this on top of everything.

Gnawing my sore lips again I knocked on the door, but with no answer. Furrowing my eyebrows I walked in away, revealing a swaying Frankie looking stricken and a hysterical Gerard screaming into a pillow.

‘Frankie, what’s up? What’s happened? Are you okay?’ I squeaked rushing over to the unresponsive boy.

‘Frank?’ I asked firmly, tilting his head towards mine with my hand.

‘He…He… I don’t know what to do.’ He choked unsteadily, still not meeting my eyes.

‘Frank…There’s not much anyone can do right now. You just have to stay strong, and be there for him okay?’

I knew that was a lie.

It’s so hard to look after Gerard, he alienates himself so much from reality that he can’t handle anything anymore, and no one can stop him, apart from himself.

‘What did Dr Threller say?’ I said softly, releasing my hand to my side and averting my gaze to Gerard.

‘He told me everything Gee’s done, everything… He can’t even fucking remember who Dr Threller is Mikes! This is all so fucked up, so so fucked up!’ Frankie sobbed, collapsing onto my shoulder and causing me to take an unexpected step back.

Rubbing my eyes with my spare hand I started to draw circles on Franks back with my fingertips, still staring at my fragile brother. I’ve never felt so clueless, so helpless.

They're both so lost.

‘Frankie, snap out of it.’ I whispered in his ear. ‘You need to be there for him Frankie, he’s a mess. You can’t loose yourself in all of this you just can’t. I know it’s hard to watch him disappear, we’ve grown up together so I understand, but you need to stay strong, seriously.’

I had a feeling I sounded too harsh so I kissed the top of his head and cuddled him tightly, his cries soon turning to sniffles. Straightening up, he took a deep breath and closed his eyes, his bangs covering half his face.

Tutting like my mother, I brushed his fringe out of his eyes and held his hand, tugging him towards Gerard. I sat on the chair next to his bed and rested my hand on Gerard’s shoulder lightly, causing his distant red eyes to meet mine.

‘Gee, I’m sorry. I love you.’ I said simply, but my voice was laced with so many emotions I haven’t revisited in a long time.

I moved my hand away from his shoulder and wiped away the remaining tears from his cheeks with my thumb. Smiling weakly he mouthed ‘thank you’ and clutched onto my hand, trembling. Feeling my eyes watering I blinked back the tears and buried my head into his neck, the coldness of his skin sharp, the smell of coffee and cigarettes comforting me.

‘I just want to go home.’ He croaked, his voice wavering.

Nodding, I lifted my head up and stood up shakily, quickly checking if Frankie was okay. He looked utterly heart broken. But there was a twinkle in his dismal eyes, which I think was a flicker of hope.

‘I’m going to try and persuade the doctor that you would feel better if you were home, I’m sure they’ll understand.’ I said confidently, Gerard’s hair falling in his eyes again.

'Then we can cut your fucking hair Gee.’ I laughed, receiving a small chuckle from Gerard.

Come on Gee, you can do this, you can make it.

Frank POV

I stared blankly at Mikey as he walked out of the room, his glasses catching the light of the overly lit corridor. Hopelessly diverting my attention to Gerard I climbed into his bed again and wrapped my arms around his waist, pulling his skinny figure towards mine, breathing in his scent.

His raven soft hair tickled my face so I nuzzled into his neck, the icy skin cooling down my raised temperature, his complexion soft and flawless.

Squirming, Gee turned around in bed to face me, his amber eyes vivid as the red soreness around the area heightened the beautiful colour. Raking his long fingers through his hair I moved his hand away, entwining my fingers between his perfectly.

‘I fucking love you Gee, you’re so beautiful.’ I told him, my voice husky and thick with tears.

Saying nothing, he looked down, frowning slightly.

‘I don’t deserve y-‘ I clasped my hand around his mouth hurriedly before he could finish off his ridiculous sentence, my eyes pleading with him to stop talking like that.

‘Don’t you fucking ever say you don’t deserve me Gerard. I swear to God if I hear you say that again…’ I hissed uneasily, his hot breath fast in my hand.

Desperation filtered through his eyes as he forced my hand off his mouth and firmly pressed his perfect soft lips upon mine, his hands tugging at my unbrushed hair. Moaning lustfully, he praised open my mouth with his tongue and danced with mine, our teeth clinking with sex deprivation.

‘I want you now Frankie.’ He groaned whilst still exploring my mouth, one hand placed on the small on my back the other snaking its way down to my trousers.

‘Not now baby, not whilst you’re like this…’ I trailed off, my voice getting lost into his mouth, his tongue begging me to stop talking and to start doing.

‘I want you now.’ Gee repeated longingly, his voice low and hushed.

Unexpectedly, he groped my crotch firmly, making me buck my hips suddenly. I felt him smile in my mouth as I moaned under my breath, his hand massaging me.

God it felt good.

Continuing to kiss me he tugged at my trouser zip and pulled them down to my knees along with my boxers in quick succession, my hard member now visible. Leaving my mouth he started to suck below my ear lobe, knowing it was my weak spot, my body tensing with insane pleasure.

Biting my ear and tugging it gently he flicked his thumb over my tip, making me tilt my head back and semi close my eyes.

Oh fuck.

He started to run his fingers along my length, teasing me. Frustrated I closed our lips together again and viciously kissed him, his beauty putting me in a trance.

‘Gee…Oh fuck….Oh God…’ I croaked as he began to pump slowly, applying pressure to my member perfectly.

‘You like that honey?’ He cooed in my ear, my mind oblivious to where we were.

‘Oh fuck yes…’ I managed to say, my voice strained as he rapidly moved up and down, my climax reaching me fast.

‘Fuck Gerard…I can’t hold on any longer…’ I nearly shrieked, the intense sensation burning up my whole body, his lips hot as they kissed my lips again, beads of sweat beginning to drip down my face.

Swiftly, he clambered on top of me and lowered himself down, licking the tip of my cock lightly making my whole body quiver. He started to suck the tip whilst still pumping, as I tried to hold onto the moment. Moving his mouth in sink with his hand I couldn’t control my voice and a loud audible moan escaped my mouth, my hair drenched. His tongue circled my member rapidly, making me clutch onto the bed sheets as I emptied my contents into his mouth, both of us panting.

Exposing himself from under the sheets his placed a kiss on my lips, pushing his tongue in, my own cum present in my mouth.

‘You’re so fucking good Gee.’ I exhaled exhausted, his bright amber orbs glistening at me wildly, his hair sticking up awkwardly.

Smiling, he winked at me and lay down next to me on the bed, his chest rising and falling fast.

‘You taste so fucking good.’ He said, grabbing hold of my sweaty palm and squeezing.

Just on queue Mikey burst through the door chaotically, with a random nurse close by. Eyeing us both up and down accusingly the nurse flipped through Gerard's medical notes and jotted some things down, before nodding awkwardly at us and sauntering out quickly, Mikey’s eyebrows raised.

‘What?!’ Gee and I exclaimed at the same time, still breathing heavily.

‘Nothing…’ Mikey said quietly ‘The nurse is just going to talk to the doctor and see if you can go home.’ He rushed, before bowing his head and trudging out, a pang of guilt stabbing me.

‘I can’t wait until we get home.’ Gerard said seductively, tracing his fingers up and down my chest.

Swallowing, I weakly smiled, enjoying the spark Gerard seemed to have retrieved back.

‘Me too baby.’ I said, licking my chapped lips and wiping the sweat of my forehead with the back of my hand, deeply loosing myself into his pretty eyes.

With that, Gee’s eyes fluttered close and he began to snore softly, still holding my hand, but loosely. Resting my head on his bony chest my eyes started to close too, my confidence sky high as I realized I was going to get my baby back.