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This Love, This Hate
24/05/12 2:29pm
Miss told us to write a journal in the back of our books. But I have this already. So I thought why not use it. I was just daydreaming about typing that ‘I don’t care if they see it’. But then again maybe I do. Maybe Nico’s reading over my shoulder right now. Maybe not. Should I care? Do I have a choice? I feel like the narrator in Fight Club. Sort of. You, esteemed reader, shall not know my name. Unless I want to tell you. Yeah bullshit like I’m ever gonna let anyone read this. But then again there is my attention seeking side. Hey Nico! Look at me! I have secretive writings on my laptop! Yeah I don’t think so. What would dear Gozza think? I feel so petty but I’m so jealous of Paul to be so close to her. I couldn’t hold her like that. I have to lick her in our game instead of, like Paul, a gentle kiss on the cheek.
OH Klara wants us to sing Happy Birthday to Mrs Sonter. We did. We sucked. I think she thought it was nice. Whatever. I just looked at Max and he did that weird jump thing. Is he reading this? It is in plain view. Should I mind? I wonder what people would say if I just walked over and threw myself through the window. It looks like it would hurt.
Max was reading. He asked me what journal we’re supposed to do. I watched his eyes scan the page
then I shut my laptop. So maybe I do care.
24/05/12 2:29pm
Miss told us to write a journal in the back of our books. But I have this already. So I thought why not use it. I was just daydreaming about typing that ‘I don’t care if they see it’. But then again maybe I do. Maybe Nico’s reading over my shoulder right now. Maybe not. Should I care? Do I have a choice? I feel like the narrator in Fight Club. Sort of. You, esteemed reader, shall not know my name. Unless I want to tell you. Yeah bullshit like I’m ever gonna let anyone read this. But then again there is my attention seeking side. Hey Nico! Look at me! I have secretive writings on my laptop! Yeah I don’t think so. What would dear Gozza think? I feel so petty but I’m so jealous of Paul to be so close to her. I couldn’t hold her like that. I have to lick her in our game instead of, like Paul, a gentle kiss on the cheek.
OH Klara wants us to sing Happy Birthday to Mrs Sonter. We did. We sucked. I think she thought it was nice. Whatever. I just looked at Max and he did that weird jump thing. Is he reading this? It is in plain view. Should I mind? I wonder what people would say if I just walked over and threw myself through the window. It looks like it would hurt.
Max was reading. He asked me what journal we’re supposed to do. I watched his eyes scan the page
then I shut my laptop. So maybe I do care.
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