FicWad

I love you
And I hate you
You're slowly murdering me
But I can't go on without you
I don't want you
But I need you
And sometimes, I don't know a damn thing
Except that I'm still not sick of you
And I can't help but wonder
If this is the best it gets

I don't want to spend the rest of my time
Hiding
Under long sleeves and opaque black tights
I don't want to one day look my son or daughter
In the eyes
And explain Mommy's demons
And why her arms and legs at laced
In a deep purple

You're all I have
Even when you destroy me
You think you own me
While it's you that fits in the palm of my hand
Some days you may control me
But I'm not fucking powerless to you

There's a quitter in me somewhere