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Regrets of Fire Lord Azula



(Ty Lee and Kuzo reach Piandao's Home. This is the same as the Prologue)



To Ty Lee, to Master Piandao, to Master Katara, and most importantly of all, to my son Kuzo,



Enclosed in this letter is a small memoire and my confessions. I can only hope that you find it in your heart to move past the things I've done. If that is not possible, then I wish that you do not bare any hatred towards my son whom I am entrusting in your care. I have hid many things from him. But it is time that these things come to light.

Kuzo. You've asked me often before. About the Last Agni Kai, the Fall of the Northern Water Tribe, and why I have never taken apersonal role in your training. All I could do was look away in shame. I am sorry for all of this. The only thing I know that I did right by you was give you your name. Kuzo. I named you after my brother, Zuko. All in hopes that you become as great a man as he was.

No. You will have to become even greater. For you are the Avatar. The one to lead the world to peace.

I will now explain everything that has happened up to this point, and what I believe must be done.

On the day of Sozin's Comet, I fought Zuko in what would become the Last Agni Kai. Back then, I was a hopeless fool that burned everything and everyone I held most dear. Zuko and Katara had come to stop me at the palace coronation. We fought, and Zuko gained the advantage.

I remember his skill even now. Straightforward and full of life. My fire bending was fueled by hatred and destruction. It was the only way I knew, which was why I never taught you fire bending, Kuzo. Your uncle's was the right way. In fire bending, and in life. I see that now.

I was going to lose so I did the only thing I could think of. I attacked Katara in the middle of the duel. Zuko selflessly moved to intercept my lightning bolt. It struck him in the heart and the face he had will haunt me forever. That was how your Uncle Zuko died. A protector and atrue friend. Not like the fake history portrayed him by the Fire Nation's propagandist history.

I felt grief tear whatever was left of my soul. I wasn't strong enough to bear it. So I did what I always did, I directed all my pain at others. I fought Katara who didn't really put up a fight at all, and captured her. Over the next few years, I would torture Katara endlessly in our jails. Iblamed her for the death of Zuko. I wish I could take it all back. Thankfully she escaped from our jails a long time ago, though I'm not sure if she still lives.

After the Last Agni Kai, it was confirmed that your grandfather, the Phoenix King Ozai, had brought the world to its knees. The Avatar Aang tried to stop him but failed and lost his life. What remained of the Avatar's group and the White Lotus, scattered to the winds. I have an idea where Sokka might be and if my hunch is correct, Master Piandao should be able to help you locate him. I'm sure he will guide you well.

Once the events of Sozin's Comet ended, my father knew we had to kill the next Avatar. After an Air Bender, the next reincarnation was supposed to be a Water Bender. It was in accordance with our plans. The only stronghold left that stood against the Fire Nation was the Northern Water Tribe.

I lead the attack personally. The blame I placed on Katara for Zuko's death transformed into a hatred I felt for all Water Benders.

I have nightmares of the day the Northern Water Tribe fell. Ten water tribesmen surround a single child's bed, ready to give their lives to defend her. And that they did. I slaughtered the guards in cold blood and came face to face with the child they were protecting. For a second, I may have thought everything could yet be salvageable. That I could stop this madness.

But fear and contempt won out in the end. I ended the innocent child's life. That was the breaking point for me.

Many years after the Fall of the Northern Water Tribe, the hallucinations and trauma I suffered from were at their worst. The guilt had finally set in. I sank into a deep depression. I stayed in my room for weeks and months on end. Tormented by apparitions of my mother and Zuko. During that time, father arranged a political marriage for me. Love took no part in it. Its purpose was only to continue the family line.

And then what I feared most came to pass. They found the next Avatar.

Father ordered that I lead the attack on an Earth Kingdom rebellion group, which was protecting the Avatar. The Dai Li intelligence corps revealed that they were made up of Earth Kingdom soldiers and remnants of the Kiyoshi Warriors. Their leaders were none other than Kiyoshi Warrior Suki and Toph Beifong, Avatar Aang's previous companions. I refused to take part in the battle. I couldn't bring myself to fight, much less kill another innocent child. I was able to avoid taking part because of the revelation that I was pregnant.

My husband, and your father, Baro, led the attack and mercilessly wiped out the rebellion group. I do not know what happened to Toph Beifong but Suki was said to have stood alone between the Fire Nation's forces and the child Avatar. She had fought valiantly but lost to their overwhelming numbers.

When the battle ended, Baro took the life of the child Avatar himself. I never had any particular feelings towards him, not even when we were married. But after that day, I felt nothing but hatred and disgust towards him. It was like despising who I once was. A soulless monster that took the lives of innocent children. I wanted to end his life. I was overcome by so much grief and guilt back then, that I would have done anything for even the smallest piece of repentance. But I never went on with it. Because you, my little Kuzo, were born.

I didn't know what to do with you. There was no doubt in my mind that I was unfit to raise you. I was unbalanced, but there was one thing I was sure of. I could not let you be taught by the Fire Empire. So when it came time for your education, I asserted my right to educate you myself. Ididn't want you to be tainted by the cruel teachings of the Fire Empire, Baro, or myself. So I took you to the only one that could guide you properly. Your great uncle Iroh.

He was captured in the events of Sozin's Comet and imprisoned. But you know the story from here. I snuck you into Uncle's prison to learn from him.

Years passed, and you grew into the bright young boy Ialways hoped you would be. You reminded me and Uncle Iroh of Zuko when he was younger. But you couldn't be more different when it came to talent. You were aprodigy. Father couldn't help but be impressed, praising you as a greater genius than myself. So impressed that he recommended you to become the next in line to become Phoenix King.

This did not sit well with Baro. It was he who was supposed to be the next Phoenix King after father passed away. I feared for your life. I begged my father to rethink it and when that failed, warned him of Baro's ill intent. After hearing that, he ordered that I place you under his own care. I felt trapped. Either I would give you to my father and see you corrupted, or try to keep you and put you in danger from Baro.

And then things took a turn for the worse. During one of your education sessions with uncle, you began Earth bending. I had my suspicions before. Your more than exceptional Fire bending, even for a prodigy, and your birth near the time the Earth Bender Avatar lost his life. Baro now had the perfect excuse to kill you and claim the Phoenix King throne.

[/Kuzo. At Uncle's advisement, I am sending you away from the Fire Empire. Do not look for me or Uncle. As soon as the palace knows of your escape, the order for our deaths will come swiftly after. You are to master the four elements and become the Avatar. I'm sorry. I wish I could have given you a better life. A life far away from all this. Unburdened, with afamily that could properly take care of you.