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I hate Christmas. But not for the reason one might think. It is not because of bad presents (though some presents are shitty to be fair). It is not because of the TV showing mostly Christmas movies (even though that fricking sucks; the movies aren't even that good). It is not because of snow (snow is actually a fucking rare sight in Germany), I love(d) snow. It is because of my parents yelling at each other. And a bit because of distant family members. Once those family members are over, it is a lot of STRESS. But let us not talk about the family drama. But let us talk about my family. Oh, well. Technically that is family drama as well. Oops, haha. Anyways.

A lot of aguments about food, a lot of arguments about presents, a lot of arguments about family, and a lot of yelling. Yelling, you hear me? Yelling! Yelling, on a day where there should be no yelling. It is annoying, it is draining, it is way too much unnecessary stress. Stress, that could be avoided. At least on this special day. Please, I am begging. Please, just give us a break from this hell. I do not how much longer I am able to keep this up. I do not care about who it is that gives us this release that I so much wish for. As long as we finally get it. Then, maybe then, I can finally learn how to be happy. How to be truly happy. It is something I really wish for and yet I never seem to get this wish fulfilled. This life we live in is so freaking draining, I do not know how much longer I will be alive. I swear, one day before my birthday. That shall be my last day alive! I swear upon my very life that on that day, I will end it all. And no one will be able to stop me, haha! My plan is foolproof. Nothing, absolutely nothing can go wrong! Everything will go according to plan, I swear! There is no doubt that I will be successful this time! I would be doing it today, but I think it would be a bad idea. My relatives and 'friends' will then only remember Christmas as the day where I died. Or well, perhaps they would not even care. That seems like it is the more likely ending. There is no happy ending in this story, no matter how you twist it. Change the main character and the personality of the main character. Then, and only then, do you have a different story and probably a different ending. If you, my dear reader (whoever that might be), wish for a happy ending, then read a different story. Because you certainly will not, will never get a happy ending in this one. I do not know, go aand read a princess story. They should technically all be ending happily, right? I do not know about this. I do not read this type of thing. This, my dear reader, the very thing you are currently reading, this is my domain.