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After playing a big show in Brussels we headed to Paris, France. Frank was in the other bus and I was here. It would only take like 6 hours to drive from Brussels to Paris. It had now been 2 hours since we left Brussels behind us. And I missed Frank all ready.
I miss you,
I wish you were here next to me.
Ebb
I texted him on my mobile phone. He had given me his number just in case. I stopped myself several times to not call him. But I would not look desperate I told myself. We had only just met and kissed so far. I raised the volume on my ipod and isolated me more from the others. I really didn’t have much to say to them right now.
I miss you too Ebb,
I wish I was with you and not here being bored to death looking at the back of Rays head.
Frank
I smiled and turned off my mobile. I went in to our but and took my bag out from under my bunk. I putted the blue suitcase on the bed and opened it. And there it was, my beloved camera. Which I hade saved for months to buy, and now was very protective over. I had two things I really loved in life, music and photographing. But I had been so focused on my music these past weeks I had never really had time to take my camera. But now I hade time. I turned it on and looked at the picture’s already in it. I got a stain in my heart when I say Adam’s smile face me. I quick pressed delete. There were no other pictures on the camera. I looked down in the bag again and saw my big black photo album where I stored my favourite pictures. I sat down on my bed and leaded agents the black wall, picked up the album and opened it. I spent a couple minutes looking through my album and then took my camera and left the room. I sat down on the couch again and looked around to find anything to take a picture off. Anything would due. I raised my camera and snapped a shoot at Julia sleeping in the other end on the couch. The flash woke her up.
“Do you mind? I’m trying to sleep over here, fuck off,” She was easily irritated when she didn’t sleep enough. I stood up and walked to the back window. The other bus was behind us and I saw the guys sitting around the TV and playing one off their 100 video games. I looked at Gerard who was not playing the game with the others, but sitting further back closer to me. He had his head resting ageist the glass and a sketching pad in his knee. He looked up from his drawing and saw me standing there with my camera against my shoulder; he smiled at me and waved. I waved smile back. He turned page in his pad and wrote something and the held it up ageist the glass so I could see.
Photographing, really?
I nodded at him and smiled, he did the thumbs up and turn the page back and continued with his drawing. I went back to my suitcase and tucked the camera into its safety case and closed my bag. My ordinary restless came crawling into me and I picked up my guitar. Playing the song ‘Save me’ by Unwritten Law.
“Had a bad day, don't talk to me
Gonna ride this out,
My little black heart, breaks apart,
With your big mouth.
And I'm sick of my sickness
Don’t touch me, You'll get this
I'm useless, lazy, perverted
And you hate me
You can't save me
You can't change me
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call
And everything, everything's my fault…”
It was one of the song’s that kept me calm in some weird way. I could listen to it when I was angry, sad and even happy. The door opened and Jennie came into the room.
“So you’re sitting here alone and playing music as usually,” She said and sat down next to me.
“Well, I was alone until you came,” I said.
“Oh, okay,” she said quite. “If you want too be alone just say so. I just came to tell you that we will be in Paris in about 20 min,” Jennie stood up from that way.
“No, I didn’t mean in that way,” I said. “Come back and talk too me,” she smiled at me and sat down again.
[Frank pov]
Paris was really like Paris always was when we were there, it was total chaos. We were there in two days the first day we had this signing in a record store that took all day. But we didn’t really mind, it was for our fans sake. They stood in line for hours just to get an autograph, a picture or hug. When we got back to our hotel we were all really tired and fell right to sleep. I had no time that day to even see Ebba for just a second. Ebba and the others in the band could walk around in Paris and get a closer look.
[Ebba pov]
My day in Paris was really amazing. I had a chance to see all the places that I once had seen in my French book in French class. I took a lot pictures and we say the famous pieces of Paris. I actually spook a little oh so poor French during the day. I got a bit bummed when our tour manager told us we wouldn’t hang out with the band all day.
“Oh, look!” Julia said and pointed at a beautiful old-fashion ice-cream stand. “Let’s get some ice-cream!”
By the time to go to bed my feet were all numb after all the walking and I fell asleep before my head touched my pillow. I sleep really well and woke up smiling the next morning. The others were all asleep and I left the hotel room and walk down to the dining area to get some coffee and maybe a croissant. It was all empty when I entered the room. I looked at a big watch on the wall, 9.30. I grabbed my coffee, a croissant and an English newspaper, curious about what was happening in the world. I sat down by the window and opened the paper.
“Hey, do you mind if I sit here,” Someone said and I putted the paper and saw Gerard standing in front of me also holding a cup of coffee.
“Good morning, no not at all,” I said and Gerard sat down.
“Anything interesting?” he said and looked at the paper.
“No, not anything,” An awkward silence came between us.
“Ehm, so I saw that you were holding a camera the other day…” Gerard began and broke the silence. “Do you like to take pictures?”
“Yeah, I really love to do that!” I replayed
“Oh, that’s cool. I like to draw things,” he said. “Are you any good at photographing?
“Well I’d like to think so,” I said and looked down at the table.
After my breakfast with Gerard I brought some breakfast up to the room to Julia and Jennie.
“Wake up, its beautiful day,” I walked over to the window and pulled away the curtains, it was raining. “Well big deal if is raining, were gonna play a show tonight,” Jennie sat up in her bed but Julia pulled her cover over her head groaning. I jumped up in her bed and stated to jump.
“C’mon Julia!” I said and pulled away both her cover and her pillow. She smiled at me and pushed me of the bed.
“Okay! I’m up!”
“Yeah, good! Have some breakfast,” I said and pointed at the tray I’d brought up. “Later!” I said and left the room and walked a cross the corridor and knocked on Frank’s and Mikey’s door. Mikey opened the door just a sec later like had been standing right by the door.
“Oh hi, Ebba,” he said smiling. “I was just heading down to have breakfast, wanna join me?”
“Oh, no I’ve already eaten,” I saw that Mikey became disappointed so I quickly added. “Some other day, okay?”
“Yeah sure!” he said.
“Is Frank here? I need to ask him something,”
“Yeah, just come on in,” he said and I walked in and Mikey walked down to the dining area. In the room there were two big beds in each end of the room. I saw Frank laying in one of them with a pillow over his head. It was odd that he had his shoes on. I walk to him a lay down on his chest and Frank laid his arms around me.
“Oh, it’s really nice too see you again Ebb,” Gerard said and I became aware that it was Gerard in the bed and not Frank. I pulled away the pillow and saw Gerard smiling at me.
“Yeah, I realised that you hadn’t given me a morning hug jet,” I said and hid my surprise to have realised that it wasn’t Frank. I sat up again and a second later Frank came out from the bathroom with a green toothbrush in his mouth, he wasn’t wearing a tee-shirt.
“Oh, I thought I heard your voice Ebb,” He said smiling. “Could you come in the bathroom I need some female advice on something. I don’t think Gerard can help me,” I nodded and fallowed him into the bathroom.
“Close the door!” he whispered and without a sound a closed it. A second later Frank’s lips met mine. His hand in my hair and my arms around his waste.
So later that night we played another concert, this one was more amazing than the others. They were all really, really great. But this one was special somehow. I didn’t want it to be over but it was time to en with one last song.
“Okay, so we thought were gonna end with this song that we never played before to anyone. So you guy’s are the first to hear this. It’s called; ‘All Because Of You’.” The crowd screamed and I felt like a rock star. I looked at Jennie and she did the thumbs up and I began to sing:
“It’s my tears
Don’t they mean a shit?
How could you stand by the side when you knew?
My feelings are no longer there
My heart doesn’t mean a shit?”
We began to play a really rough melody and gave out a loud scream. It felt right to do that. And I began to sing once more.
“What’s it like to see me leave
Cause you only make it worse
You supposed to be my rock
You only make it worse
It’s your entire fault I’m like this
The scars on my arms are because of you
The pieces off my heart can not be found
I’m drowned inside,
When you destroy the last things I had left
You push me of the bridge,
You give me the pills
You tie the knot around my throat
You pull the trigger
You stole my last breath
Are you happy now?
What’s it like to see me leave
Cause you only make it worse
You supposed to be my rock
You only make it worse
Yeah, you only made I worse
It’s all because of you
Don’t I mean a shit?
You were supposed to protect my heart
Breaking it was it really the answer?
Oh, you are so fake, such a liar
And you’re so cold, oh so cold
What’s it like to see me leave
Cause you only make it worse
You supposed to be my rock
You only make it worse
You only make it worse
Tell me are you happy now?
Tell me is this what you wanted?
Was the ending of my life what I deserved?” [[© This lyric is written by me and don’t dare to steal it]]
It was really the best we had ever played and the crowed cheered like forever.
“Way to go and to steal the show from us,” Frank said as I left the stage.
“Yeah, your lyric was awesome really!” Gerard said who stood next to Frank. “I wanted to ask you something,” he continued.
“Okay, shoot,” I said.
“Do you wanna come up on stage with us and sing a song or something.” Hh said. “Like Helena?”
“Hell yeah! Of course if you want me to I’ll do it!” I said exited and he smiled and began to walk on to the stage. After getting myself some water I went to stand on the side of the stage as I did when they were playing. I became really happy when they began to play my favourite song, ‘You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us In Prison,” There wasn’t really anywhere else in the world I would like to be right now. I remember just a couple years ago when I was 12 and I had bought my first guitar. I spent the whole summer playing on it. Sometimes being close to throwing it into the wall or sometime just letting the music take me over. And to stand here now is unbelievable. Dreams do really come true.
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I miss you,
I wish you were here next to me.
Ebb
I texted him on my mobile phone. He had given me his number just in case. I stopped myself several times to not call him. But I would not look desperate I told myself. We had only just met and kissed so far. I raised the volume on my ipod and isolated me more from the others. I really didn’t have much to say to them right now.
I miss you too Ebb,
I wish I was with you and not here being bored to death looking at the back of Rays head.
Frank
I smiled and turned off my mobile. I went in to our but and took my bag out from under my bunk. I putted the blue suitcase on the bed and opened it. And there it was, my beloved camera. Which I hade saved for months to buy, and now was very protective over. I had two things I really loved in life, music and photographing. But I had been so focused on my music these past weeks I had never really had time to take my camera. But now I hade time. I turned it on and looked at the picture’s already in it. I got a stain in my heart when I say Adam’s smile face me. I quick pressed delete. There were no other pictures on the camera. I looked down in the bag again and saw my big black photo album where I stored my favourite pictures. I sat down on my bed and leaded agents the black wall, picked up the album and opened it. I spent a couple minutes looking through my album and then took my camera and left the room. I sat down on the couch again and looked around to find anything to take a picture off. Anything would due. I raised my camera and snapped a shoot at Julia sleeping in the other end on the couch. The flash woke her up.
“Do you mind? I’m trying to sleep over here, fuck off,” She was easily irritated when she didn’t sleep enough. I stood up and walked to the back window. The other bus was behind us and I saw the guys sitting around the TV and playing one off their 100 video games. I looked at Gerard who was not playing the game with the others, but sitting further back closer to me. He had his head resting ageist the glass and a sketching pad in his knee. He looked up from his drawing and saw me standing there with my camera against my shoulder; he smiled at me and waved. I waved smile back. He turned page in his pad and wrote something and the held it up ageist the glass so I could see.
Photographing, really?
I nodded at him and smiled, he did the thumbs up and turn the page back and continued with his drawing. I went back to my suitcase and tucked the camera into its safety case and closed my bag. My ordinary restless came crawling into me and I picked up my guitar. Playing the song ‘Save me’ by Unwritten Law.
“Had a bad day, don't talk to me
Gonna ride this out,
My little black heart, breaks apart,
With your big mouth.
And I'm sick of my sickness
Don’t touch me, You'll get this
I'm useless, lazy, perverted
And you hate me
You can't save me
You can't change me
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call
And everything, everything's my fault…”
It was one of the song’s that kept me calm in some weird way. I could listen to it when I was angry, sad and even happy. The door opened and Jennie came into the room.
“So you’re sitting here alone and playing music as usually,” She said and sat down next to me.
“Well, I was alone until you came,” I said.
“Oh, okay,” she said quite. “If you want too be alone just say so. I just came to tell you that we will be in Paris in about 20 min,” Jennie stood up from that way.
“No, I didn’t mean in that way,” I said. “Come back and talk too me,” she smiled at me and sat down again.
[Frank pov]
Paris was really like Paris always was when we were there, it was total chaos. We were there in two days the first day we had this signing in a record store that took all day. But we didn’t really mind, it was for our fans sake. They stood in line for hours just to get an autograph, a picture or hug. When we got back to our hotel we were all really tired and fell right to sleep. I had no time that day to even see Ebba for just a second. Ebba and the others in the band could walk around in Paris and get a closer look.
[Ebba pov]
My day in Paris was really amazing. I had a chance to see all the places that I once had seen in my French book in French class. I took a lot pictures and we say the famous pieces of Paris. I actually spook a little oh so poor French during the day. I got a bit bummed when our tour manager told us we wouldn’t hang out with the band all day.
“Oh, look!” Julia said and pointed at a beautiful old-fashion ice-cream stand. “Let’s get some ice-cream!”
By the time to go to bed my feet were all numb after all the walking and I fell asleep before my head touched my pillow. I sleep really well and woke up smiling the next morning. The others were all asleep and I left the hotel room and walk down to the dining area to get some coffee and maybe a croissant. It was all empty when I entered the room. I looked at a big watch on the wall, 9.30. I grabbed my coffee, a croissant and an English newspaper, curious about what was happening in the world. I sat down by the window and opened the paper.
“Hey, do you mind if I sit here,” Someone said and I putted the paper and saw Gerard standing in front of me also holding a cup of coffee.
“Good morning, no not at all,” I said and Gerard sat down.
“Anything interesting?” he said and looked at the paper.
“No, not anything,” An awkward silence came between us.
“Ehm, so I saw that you were holding a camera the other day…” Gerard began and broke the silence. “Do you like to take pictures?”
“Yeah, I really love to do that!” I replayed
“Oh, that’s cool. I like to draw things,” he said. “Are you any good at photographing?
“Well I’d like to think so,” I said and looked down at the table.
After my breakfast with Gerard I brought some breakfast up to the room to Julia and Jennie.
“Wake up, its beautiful day,” I walked over to the window and pulled away the curtains, it was raining. “Well big deal if is raining, were gonna play a show tonight,” Jennie sat up in her bed but Julia pulled her cover over her head groaning. I jumped up in her bed and stated to jump.
“C’mon Julia!” I said and pulled away both her cover and her pillow. She smiled at me and pushed me of the bed.
“Okay! I’m up!”
“Yeah, good! Have some breakfast,” I said and pointed at the tray I’d brought up. “Later!” I said and left the room and walked a cross the corridor and knocked on Frank’s and Mikey’s door. Mikey opened the door just a sec later like had been standing right by the door.
“Oh hi, Ebba,” he said smiling. “I was just heading down to have breakfast, wanna join me?”
“Oh, no I’ve already eaten,” I saw that Mikey became disappointed so I quickly added. “Some other day, okay?”
“Yeah sure!” he said.
“Is Frank here? I need to ask him something,”
“Yeah, just come on in,” he said and I walked in and Mikey walked down to the dining area. In the room there were two big beds in each end of the room. I saw Frank laying in one of them with a pillow over his head. It was odd that he had his shoes on. I walk to him a lay down on his chest and Frank laid his arms around me.
“Oh, it’s really nice too see you again Ebb,” Gerard said and I became aware that it was Gerard in the bed and not Frank. I pulled away the pillow and saw Gerard smiling at me.
“Yeah, I realised that you hadn’t given me a morning hug jet,” I said and hid my surprise to have realised that it wasn’t Frank. I sat up again and a second later Frank came out from the bathroom with a green toothbrush in his mouth, he wasn’t wearing a tee-shirt.
“Oh, I thought I heard your voice Ebb,” He said smiling. “Could you come in the bathroom I need some female advice on something. I don’t think Gerard can help me,” I nodded and fallowed him into the bathroom.
“Close the door!” he whispered and without a sound a closed it. A second later Frank’s lips met mine. His hand in my hair and my arms around his waste.
So later that night we played another concert, this one was more amazing than the others. They were all really, really great. But this one was special somehow. I didn’t want it to be over but it was time to en with one last song.
“Okay, so we thought were gonna end with this song that we never played before to anyone. So you guy’s are the first to hear this. It’s called; ‘All Because Of You’.” The crowd screamed and I felt like a rock star. I looked at Jennie and she did the thumbs up and I began to sing:
“It’s my tears
Don’t they mean a shit?
How could you stand by the side when you knew?
My feelings are no longer there
My heart doesn’t mean a shit?”
We began to play a really rough melody and gave out a loud scream. It felt right to do that. And I began to sing once more.
“What’s it like to see me leave
Cause you only make it worse
You supposed to be my rock
You only make it worse
It’s your entire fault I’m like this
The scars on my arms are because of you
The pieces off my heart can not be found
I’m drowned inside,
When you destroy the last things I had left
You push me of the bridge,
You give me the pills
You tie the knot around my throat
You pull the trigger
You stole my last breath
Are you happy now?
What’s it like to see me leave
Cause you only make it worse
You supposed to be my rock
You only make it worse
Yeah, you only made I worse
It’s all because of you
Don’t I mean a shit?
You were supposed to protect my heart
Breaking it was it really the answer?
Oh, you are so fake, such a liar
And you’re so cold, oh so cold
What’s it like to see me leave
Cause you only make it worse
You supposed to be my rock
You only make it worse
You only make it worse
Tell me are you happy now?
Tell me is this what you wanted?
Was the ending of my life what I deserved?” [[© This lyric is written by me and don’t dare to steal it]]
It was really the best we had ever played and the crowed cheered like forever.
“Way to go and to steal the show from us,” Frank said as I left the stage.
“Yeah, your lyric was awesome really!” Gerard said who stood next to Frank. “I wanted to ask you something,” he continued.
“Okay, shoot,” I said.
“Do you wanna come up on stage with us and sing a song or something.” Hh said. “Like Helena?”
“Hell yeah! Of course if you want me to I’ll do it!” I said exited and he smiled and began to walk on to the stage. After getting myself some water I went to stand on the side of the stage as I did when they were playing. I became really happy when they began to play my favourite song, ‘You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us In Prison,” There wasn’t really anywhere else in the world I would like to be right now. I remember just a couple years ago when I was 12 and I had bought my first guitar. I spent the whole summer playing on it. Sometimes being close to throwing it into the wall or sometime just letting the music take me over. And to stand here now is unbelievable. Dreams do really come true.
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