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Things I'll Never Say

by jengrey 3 reviews

If I could say what I want to see I want to see you go down—on one knee Marry me today Guess I'm wishing my life away With these things I'll never say,’

Category: Class of the Titans - Rating: PG - Genres: Angst,Drama,Romance - Published: 2007-11-21 - Updated: 2007-11-22 - 665 words

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Chapter 17: Things I’ll Never Say

It was far after midnight, way into the wee hours of the morning, that Theresa finally climbed back into her bedroom. She peered to the next balcony where Jay’s bedroom was. Brooke was nowhere to be found. She’s probably snoozing on the couch downstairs with Jay waiting for me by her side, she thought angrily as her bedroom lights flickered. A migraine-hangover will be too good for her. Someone should put her out of her misery. I never knew that Jay fell for the bitches. Or is it skinny girls that he likes…

She retreated to the full-scale mirror that Neil had given her for a birthday present and lifted her soaked shirt. Rolls of fat, blubber. Her eyes stung for the thousandth time that night. No, stay strong Theresa, she thought and blinked the approaching tears away. She fell to her bed.

‘I'm tuggin' at my hair
I'm pullin' at my clothes,’ she pulled her shirt lower and heard seams tearing.
‘I'm tryin' to keep my cool
I know it shows,

‘I'm staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red,
I'm searching for the words inside my head,

‘I'm feeling nervous,’

Or is the grumbling hunger?

‘Tryin' to be so perfect
'Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it
Yeah...

‘If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you—away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down—on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say,’

Theresa leaned to the side on her bed and stared blankly at the photo Odie had printed off the PMR for her…

‘It don't do me any good it's just a waste of time
What use is it to you what's on my mind?
If it ain't comin' out, we're not going anywhere,’ she left the bed and held the picture close to her heart.
‘So why can't I just tell you that I care?

'Cause I'm feeling nervous
Tryin' to be so perfect
'Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it,’ But she threw the picture to the bed.
‘Yeah…

‘If I could say what I wanna say,’ She held her sides—
‘I'd say I want to blow you—away,’ –And quickly let go.
‘Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could say what I wanna see
I want to see you go down—on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say,’ She ran her fingers through her hair and stretched her arms to behind her back.

‘(What is) What's wrong with my tongue?
These words keep slipping away,’ She fell to the bed once again.
‘I stutter I stumble like I've got nothing to say,

‘'Cause I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect,’ Her head tilted so she saw that picture clearly.
‘'Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it
Yeah…

‘I guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say,’ She picked up the object…

‘If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you--away
Be with you every night,’ Theresa stared into the two beaming faces, wet from the water…
‘Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down--on one knee
Marry me today,’ Archie and Atlanta had challenged them to a chicken fight…
Guess I'm wishing my life away…

‘These things I’ll never say…’ When Archie saw that Jay and Theresa were winning, he ‘accidentally’ pushed them into the pond.
‘These things I'll never say…’

‘I love you Jay,’ Theresa breathed, and fell asleep, cheeks wet from tears and a picture clutched to her heart.
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