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Chapter 4
Brendon’s POV
I must of heard him wrong? “What did you say?” “It’s you. I’m in love with you.” I stood up and walked to the window. “What the hell?” “Brendon I know it’s wrong. You have a girlfriend, but I can’t keep this inside anymore. It’s eating at me. Please understand.”
“Understand? This can’t be happening.” “I’m sorry. I just wanted you to know. I know your not gay. Plus, I don’t want to hurt Kendra.” “Are you gay?” “No. I’m bi. I’ve known for awhile. I’ve had a relationship with a girl through high school and my last year in school I dated a guy. I guess you really don’t need to know my relationships.”
I looked out the window. I couldn’t say anything. Thoughts were going through my mind. I finally sat next to Patrick. I took his hand into mine. He looked shocked. “I’m gay. Kendra obviously doesn’t know. I hate deceiving her. I enjoy having sex with her, but sometimes it’s not enough for me. There have been times that I’ve wanted to break up because I feel that I’m hurting her. I do love her. I’ll always love her.”
I looked into Patrick’s eyes. “What are you going to do?” “I don’t know. I’m scared. I don’t want to hurt her. But am I hurting her with staying with her?” “As much as I would want you, you need to find what is good for you and Kendra. I can’t say what you need to do. Are you sure your not bi too? I mean, just what you have told me, I don’t think your gay.” “Maybe I am. I’m still confused with my sexuality. Right before Kendra there were a few guys.”
“Why did you start dating, Kendra?” “She’s beautiful. And I fell head over heels with her. Do you think I’m bi?” “I would say you are. Again, you need to find out for yourself. One of the guys that I dated who was gay, when he was finding out who he was he dated a couple of girls and when they had sex, he would get physically sick.” “That definitely doesn’t happen to me. I’m so worried I’m going to hurt Kendra.” “You should talk to her. I bet she would understand.” “Who would understand?” “Both Patrick and I turned around. There stood Kendra.
Kendra’s POV
I woke up and looked at the clock. It read 3AM. I got out of bed and went to the living room. I seen Patrick and Brendon talking. “You should talk to her. I bet she would understand.” Patrick said. “Who would understand.” They both looked at me. “Um, you. I was telling Patrick that we have to do a small tour. We leave in a couple of days. Are you upset?”
I went to Brendon and sat on his lap. “No, I’m happy for you.” I wrapped my arms around him and kissed him. “I’m going to miss you, but I’m excited for you.” “Good. I was a little worried about how you were going to take the news. That’s why I didn’t say anything. I’m sorry.” “It’s alright.
I looked at Patrick. He looked a little upset for some reason. “Can I still stay here while Brendon is away?” “Of course. I don’t mind. I’m going to get a glass of water and then go to bed. Goodnight.” “Goodnight, Patrick.” I watched Patrick walk to the kitchen and then looked at Brendon. “Are you coming to bed soon? I miss you.” “Yeah. I will be there soon. You sure your not upset? You could come with me, you know.” “No. I think I would like to stay here and check out the sites. Plus, I’ve traveled enough for awhile. Is that okay?” “Sure. Patrick will take care of you.”
For some reason that statement scared me. I was afraid that he just might. I should go with Brendon, but I was really tired of traveling. “Let’s go to bed.” I said getting off of Brendon. “Uh, I need to talk to Patrick. I’ll be there in a few minutes.” I kissed him. “See you in a few minutes.
Patrick’s POV
I was drinking a glass of water. I just took a sleeping pill. I knew I wouldn’t be getting any sleep tonight. “Hey.” I turned and seen Brendon. “Are you really going on tour?” “Yeah. Sort of a little promo thing. Just came up.” “Gotta love those.” “We do need to talk about all of this, but not with Kendra in the house. I can’t have her find out I’m bi or gay that way.” “I understand. How about we talk when you get back?”
“Sounds good. Will you take care of Kendra while I’m gone?” “Of course. Don’t worry about her. She’ll be fine.” “Thank you. Well, I’m going to go to bed.” “Brendon, could I have one kiss.” “I don’t know.” “Just a quick one.” “Alright.” He smiled at me. I walked toward Brendon and place my hands on his hips. He has the most amazing hips. I leaned in and touched my lips to his. His lips were so soft. Brendon moaned. I wanted to take him right there on the kitchen table. I backed up.
“What?” “Nothing. It’s just, if we continue it will be more than a kiss.” “Oh. It was very nice.” He winked at me. “I need to get to Kendra. Have a good night.” “You too. See you in the morning.” I watched Brendon leave. I put my glass in the sink and went to bed. I actually fell asleep right away.
Kendra’s POV
I woke up and Brendon wasn’t in bed. I got up and took a shower. I went to the kitchen. There was coffee made so I poured myself a cup. I walked to the living room. Patrick had his back to me. He was working and had headphones on. I touched him lightly on the shoulder. He jumped and took off the headphones.
“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to scare you.” “It’s fine. I was just concentrating on a song.” “Where’s Brendon?” “He left a note. Here.” Patrick handed me the note.
Kendra,
Went to the studio to work
on a song with Ryan. I should
be back by supper.
Love you,
Brendon
“He’s in the studio with Ryan. If I didn’t know any better I’d think he’s having an affair with Ryan.” “Um, yeah.” Patrick looked at the computer. “We still need to talk, Patrick.” “About what?” “With what happened yesterday.” “I guess so.”
Patrick’s POV
I looked at Kendra and noticed for the first time how beautiful her eyes were and how pretty she was. I can’t deny that I wonder what it would be like to kiss her. What the hell is wrong with me. I’m falling for her boyfriend and now I’m falling for her. I’m one messed up fuck. “I told you that I’m falling for you.” “Yeah.” I smiled. Why? I have no idea.
“Please don’t smile. I don’t want to fall for you. I have a loving boyfriend who loves me, but all I can think of is what your lips would feel like on mine.” All of a sudden I leaned over and placed my lips on hers and ran my hand through her hair while I kissed her.
Chapter 5
Kendra’s POV
Next thing I know Patrick’s lips are on mine. His hands are in my hair. All of a sudden, I’m leaning back on the couch. He moves from my lips to my neck. In my head I’m screaming no. His hand goes under my shirt, slowly going up and cupping my breast. He looks at me. “Tell me to stop, Kendra. This is wrong.” “I know, but I don’t want you to stop.” He bit my neck. I could feel Patrick’s erection growing. I rubbed him through his jeans and he moans into my neck.
The phone rang, but neither one of us went to answer it. The answering machine picked up. “Kendra,” It was Brendon. Patrick stopped kissing me. “Do you want to meet me for lunch? Call me if you want to come to the studio. Love you.” Patrick got off of me. “Fuck. I’m sorry.”
He left and went to his room. I got up and put my fingers to my lips. I could taste Patrick. I went and called Brendon and told him that I would meet him for lunch. I got ready and went to Patrick’s door and knocked. He didn’t answer. “Patrick, I’m leaving. Please don’t be upset. I’m at much fault. I’ll see you later.” I walked out the door and went to the studio.
I walked in and Ryan and Brendon were talking. “Hey, Babe. How are you?” “Alright.” Brendon held out his hand and I took it. “Ready to get something to eat.” “Yeah. See you later, Ryan.” “Bye.” We went to a Chinese restaurant. “How is the writing coming?” “Good. We are almost done. So, what did you do?” “Um, not too much. Patrick was putting a song together. We did talk a little. I got ready and came to the studio.” “Are you feeling okay?”
I started to cry. “Honey, what’s wrong?” He took my hands. “Nothing. I’m just going to miss you.” “I love you.” “I love you too.” I looked into his eyes. How could I lie to him. But I did.
Brendon’s POV
She said she was upset because I was leaving. I just got a bad feeling. “I’ll be back soon. Just keep busy. Maybe go out with Patrick a couple times.” “You sure?” “Yeah. Why wouldn’t it be?” “I don’t know.” “Did something happen between you and Patrick?” “No. Why?” “You just seem upset since you came to the studio.” “I’m sorry. I guess I’m just a little down. I’ll be alright.” She smiled.
“There’s my girl. I love to see you smile.” “I’m sorry to worry you.” Our food came and we ate. Afterwards, we went back to the studio. “I guess Ryan went to get something to eat. Do you want to stay for awhile?” “Sure. I’m not doing anything.” Kendra smiled at me. It was the first real smile all day.
“Baby, I wanted to ask you something. There’s a friend that thinks he might be bi and has a girlfriend. And well, he hasn’t told her. Do you think he should tell his girlfriend?” “I don’t know. Probably. They should trust each other and if there’s something like that in the way it’s going to eat at him.” “I guess your right.” I knew I had to tell her.
“Um, Kendra, this is hard. I don’t,” “Hey guys. I found Patrick coming in. Maybe we can get a song done before we leave.” Ryan and Patrick walked in the studio. I could of killed them both. “Uh, I think I’m going to leave.” “Kendra, you can stay if you want.” “No, I think I’ll go.” “Brendon, can we finish this song?” “Uh, sure, Ryan.” Ryan left Kendra and I. “Drive careful and if you need anything just call.” “I will. I love you.”
She kissed me. I watched her walk to the door. She stopped and went to talk to Patrick. They both looked upset. I got a sick feeling in my stomach. Did he tell her? I looked down at my notebook and then up in time to see Patrick touch my girlfriend’s cheek.
Patrick’s POV
After Brendon called I couldn’t get to my room fast enough. I started pacing. Who could I tell? I decided to call Pete. He agreed to come over later. I heard Kendra getting ready and then knock at my door. She told me she was leaving. After she left I went to the kitchen to get a cup of coffee. There was a knock on the door. I went and answered it.
“Hey, Trick. What the fuck is wrong? You sounded terrible on the phone and you look even worse.” “Thanks. It’s Brendon and Kendra.” “What? Did they break up?” “NO, I told Brendon my feelings.” “Dud, you didn’t.” “He was fine with it. Well, not fine, but he’s bi too.” “Really? That’s good. I mean, it’s not good, because of Kendra.” “That’s not the real problem right now.” “Oh god. What have you gotten yourself into?” “I found out Kendra has feelings for me. This morning Brendon went to the studio and we were talking about it. Well, I sort of kissed her and we made out.”
“What the fuck. I would expect something like this from me, but not you.” “I don’t need jokes. Brendon called and left a message. I just left her. I went to my room. I couldn’t face her.” “Your going to have to. Brendon is leaving for a couple weeks. How are you going to handle being alone with her?” “I have no idea. This is so screwed up. One minute I want Brendon and the next I want Kendra.” “Wish I knew what to tell you.” “Thanks for at least listening to me. I think I need to go to the studio and clear my head. Hopefully, I can get in there without seeing them.” “Alright. If you need to talk, let me know.” “Thanks.”
Pete left and I grabbed my computer and headed for the studio. I almost got to private room when Ryan seen me. “Hey, I didn’t know you were coming in.” “Hi, Ryan. I wasn’t. How is the song coming?” “Alright. We’re almost done.” I followed Ryan into the studio. There they were. I set up my computer I seen Kendra walk to the door. “Kendra how are you. She turned. “Okay.” She walked over to me. “Patrick, I want to tell you that this morning it was alright.” “No, it wasn’t.” “I want you to kiss me.” I couldn’t resist, I put my hand on her cheek.
Brendon’s POV
I must of heard him wrong? “What did you say?” “It’s you. I’m in love with you.” I stood up and walked to the window. “What the hell?” “Brendon I know it’s wrong. You have a girlfriend, but I can’t keep this inside anymore. It’s eating at me. Please understand.”
“Understand? This can’t be happening.” “I’m sorry. I just wanted you to know. I know your not gay. Plus, I don’t want to hurt Kendra.” “Are you gay?” “No. I’m bi. I’ve known for awhile. I’ve had a relationship with a girl through high school and my last year in school I dated a guy. I guess you really don’t need to know my relationships.”
I looked out the window. I couldn’t say anything. Thoughts were going through my mind. I finally sat next to Patrick. I took his hand into mine. He looked shocked. “I’m gay. Kendra obviously doesn’t know. I hate deceiving her. I enjoy having sex with her, but sometimes it’s not enough for me. There have been times that I’ve wanted to break up because I feel that I’m hurting her. I do love her. I’ll always love her.”
I looked into Patrick’s eyes. “What are you going to do?” “I don’t know. I’m scared. I don’t want to hurt her. But am I hurting her with staying with her?” “As much as I would want you, you need to find what is good for you and Kendra. I can’t say what you need to do. Are you sure your not bi too? I mean, just what you have told me, I don’t think your gay.” “Maybe I am. I’m still confused with my sexuality. Right before Kendra there were a few guys.”
“Why did you start dating, Kendra?” “She’s beautiful. And I fell head over heels with her. Do you think I’m bi?” “I would say you are. Again, you need to find out for yourself. One of the guys that I dated who was gay, when he was finding out who he was he dated a couple of girls and when they had sex, he would get physically sick.” “That definitely doesn’t happen to me. I’m so worried I’m going to hurt Kendra.” “You should talk to her. I bet she would understand.” “Who would understand?” “Both Patrick and I turned around. There stood Kendra.
Kendra’s POV
I woke up and looked at the clock. It read 3AM. I got out of bed and went to the living room. I seen Patrick and Brendon talking. “You should talk to her. I bet she would understand.” Patrick said. “Who would understand.” They both looked at me. “Um, you. I was telling Patrick that we have to do a small tour. We leave in a couple of days. Are you upset?”
I went to Brendon and sat on his lap. “No, I’m happy for you.” I wrapped my arms around him and kissed him. “I’m going to miss you, but I’m excited for you.” “Good. I was a little worried about how you were going to take the news. That’s why I didn’t say anything. I’m sorry.” “It’s alright.
I looked at Patrick. He looked a little upset for some reason. “Can I still stay here while Brendon is away?” “Of course. I don’t mind. I’m going to get a glass of water and then go to bed. Goodnight.” “Goodnight, Patrick.” I watched Patrick walk to the kitchen and then looked at Brendon. “Are you coming to bed soon? I miss you.” “Yeah. I will be there soon. You sure your not upset? You could come with me, you know.” “No. I think I would like to stay here and check out the sites. Plus, I’ve traveled enough for awhile. Is that okay?” “Sure. Patrick will take care of you.”
For some reason that statement scared me. I was afraid that he just might. I should go with Brendon, but I was really tired of traveling. “Let’s go to bed.” I said getting off of Brendon. “Uh, I need to talk to Patrick. I’ll be there in a few minutes.” I kissed him. “See you in a few minutes.
Patrick’s POV
I was drinking a glass of water. I just took a sleeping pill. I knew I wouldn’t be getting any sleep tonight. “Hey.” I turned and seen Brendon. “Are you really going on tour?” “Yeah. Sort of a little promo thing. Just came up.” “Gotta love those.” “We do need to talk about all of this, but not with Kendra in the house. I can’t have her find out I’m bi or gay that way.” “I understand. How about we talk when you get back?”
“Sounds good. Will you take care of Kendra while I’m gone?” “Of course. Don’t worry about her. She’ll be fine.” “Thank you. Well, I’m going to go to bed.” “Brendon, could I have one kiss.” “I don’t know.” “Just a quick one.” “Alright.” He smiled at me. I walked toward Brendon and place my hands on his hips. He has the most amazing hips. I leaned in and touched my lips to his. His lips were so soft. Brendon moaned. I wanted to take him right there on the kitchen table. I backed up.
“What?” “Nothing. It’s just, if we continue it will be more than a kiss.” “Oh. It was very nice.” He winked at me. “I need to get to Kendra. Have a good night.” “You too. See you in the morning.” I watched Brendon leave. I put my glass in the sink and went to bed. I actually fell asleep right away.
Kendra’s POV
I woke up and Brendon wasn’t in bed. I got up and took a shower. I went to the kitchen. There was coffee made so I poured myself a cup. I walked to the living room. Patrick had his back to me. He was working and had headphones on. I touched him lightly on the shoulder. He jumped and took off the headphones.
“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to scare you.” “It’s fine. I was just concentrating on a song.” “Where’s Brendon?” “He left a note. Here.” Patrick handed me the note.
Kendra,
Went to the studio to work
on a song with Ryan. I should
be back by supper.
Love you,
Brendon
“He’s in the studio with Ryan. If I didn’t know any better I’d think he’s having an affair with Ryan.” “Um, yeah.” Patrick looked at the computer. “We still need to talk, Patrick.” “About what?” “With what happened yesterday.” “I guess so.”
Patrick’s POV
I looked at Kendra and noticed for the first time how beautiful her eyes were and how pretty she was. I can’t deny that I wonder what it would be like to kiss her. What the hell is wrong with me. I’m falling for her boyfriend and now I’m falling for her. I’m one messed up fuck. “I told you that I’m falling for you.” “Yeah.” I smiled. Why? I have no idea.
“Please don’t smile. I don’t want to fall for you. I have a loving boyfriend who loves me, but all I can think of is what your lips would feel like on mine.” All of a sudden I leaned over and placed my lips on hers and ran my hand through her hair while I kissed her.
Chapter 5
Kendra’s POV
Next thing I know Patrick’s lips are on mine. His hands are in my hair. All of a sudden, I’m leaning back on the couch. He moves from my lips to my neck. In my head I’m screaming no. His hand goes under my shirt, slowly going up and cupping my breast. He looks at me. “Tell me to stop, Kendra. This is wrong.” “I know, but I don’t want you to stop.” He bit my neck. I could feel Patrick’s erection growing. I rubbed him through his jeans and he moans into my neck.
The phone rang, but neither one of us went to answer it. The answering machine picked up. “Kendra,” It was Brendon. Patrick stopped kissing me. “Do you want to meet me for lunch? Call me if you want to come to the studio. Love you.” Patrick got off of me. “Fuck. I’m sorry.”
He left and went to his room. I got up and put my fingers to my lips. I could taste Patrick. I went and called Brendon and told him that I would meet him for lunch. I got ready and went to Patrick’s door and knocked. He didn’t answer. “Patrick, I’m leaving. Please don’t be upset. I’m at much fault. I’ll see you later.” I walked out the door and went to the studio.
I walked in and Ryan and Brendon were talking. “Hey, Babe. How are you?” “Alright.” Brendon held out his hand and I took it. “Ready to get something to eat.” “Yeah. See you later, Ryan.” “Bye.” We went to a Chinese restaurant. “How is the writing coming?” “Good. We are almost done. So, what did you do?” “Um, not too much. Patrick was putting a song together. We did talk a little. I got ready and came to the studio.” “Are you feeling okay?”
I started to cry. “Honey, what’s wrong?” He took my hands. “Nothing. I’m just going to miss you.” “I love you.” “I love you too.” I looked into his eyes. How could I lie to him. But I did.
Brendon’s POV
She said she was upset because I was leaving. I just got a bad feeling. “I’ll be back soon. Just keep busy. Maybe go out with Patrick a couple times.” “You sure?” “Yeah. Why wouldn’t it be?” “I don’t know.” “Did something happen between you and Patrick?” “No. Why?” “You just seem upset since you came to the studio.” “I’m sorry. I guess I’m just a little down. I’ll be alright.” She smiled.
“There’s my girl. I love to see you smile.” “I’m sorry to worry you.” Our food came and we ate. Afterwards, we went back to the studio. “I guess Ryan went to get something to eat. Do you want to stay for awhile?” “Sure. I’m not doing anything.” Kendra smiled at me. It was the first real smile all day.
“Baby, I wanted to ask you something. There’s a friend that thinks he might be bi and has a girlfriend. And well, he hasn’t told her. Do you think he should tell his girlfriend?” “I don’t know. Probably. They should trust each other and if there’s something like that in the way it’s going to eat at him.” “I guess your right.” I knew I had to tell her.
“Um, Kendra, this is hard. I don’t,” “Hey guys. I found Patrick coming in. Maybe we can get a song done before we leave.” Ryan and Patrick walked in the studio. I could of killed them both. “Uh, I think I’m going to leave.” “Kendra, you can stay if you want.” “No, I think I’ll go.” “Brendon, can we finish this song?” “Uh, sure, Ryan.” Ryan left Kendra and I. “Drive careful and if you need anything just call.” “I will. I love you.”
She kissed me. I watched her walk to the door. She stopped and went to talk to Patrick. They both looked upset. I got a sick feeling in my stomach. Did he tell her? I looked down at my notebook and then up in time to see Patrick touch my girlfriend’s cheek.
Patrick’s POV
After Brendon called I couldn’t get to my room fast enough. I started pacing. Who could I tell? I decided to call Pete. He agreed to come over later. I heard Kendra getting ready and then knock at my door. She told me she was leaving. After she left I went to the kitchen to get a cup of coffee. There was a knock on the door. I went and answered it.
“Hey, Trick. What the fuck is wrong? You sounded terrible on the phone and you look even worse.” “Thanks. It’s Brendon and Kendra.” “What? Did they break up?” “NO, I told Brendon my feelings.” “Dud, you didn’t.” “He was fine with it. Well, not fine, but he’s bi too.” “Really? That’s good. I mean, it’s not good, because of Kendra.” “That’s not the real problem right now.” “Oh god. What have you gotten yourself into?” “I found out Kendra has feelings for me. This morning Brendon went to the studio and we were talking about it. Well, I sort of kissed her and we made out.”
“What the fuck. I would expect something like this from me, but not you.” “I don’t need jokes. Brendon called and left a message. I just left her. I went to my room. I couldn’t face her.” “Your going to have to. Brendon is leaving for a couple weeks. How are you going to handle being alone with her?” “I have no idea. This is so screwed up. One minute I want Brendon and the next I want Kendra.” “Wish I knew what to tell you.” “Thanks for at least listening to me. I think I need to go to the studio and clear my head. Hopefully, I can get in there without seeing them.” “Alright. If you need to talk, let me know.” “Thanks.”
Pete left and I grabbed my computer and headed for the studio. I almost got to private room when Ryan seen me. “Hey, I didn’t know you were coming in.” “Hi, Ryan. I wasn’t. How is the song coming?” “Alright. We’re almost done.” I followed Ryan into the studio. There they were. I set up my computer I seen Kendra walk to the door. “Kendra how are you. She turned. “Okay.” She walked over to me. “Patrick, I want to tell you that this morning it was alright.” “No, it wasn’t.” “I want you to kiss me.” I couldn’t resist, I put my hand on her cheek.
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