(#) rockerchick4life 2011-05-02i just have no one to talk to really.... and everything just keeps getting worse..
Author's responseI'm here for you. One of the things that helped me was finding self-reliant hobbies. I have a psycho for a mom and she loves to break or take my stuff, so I had to come up with things to do that didn't include leaving the house or having a bunch of stuff. I picked writing. I could write all day and no matter how many times she'd try to tear it to shreds or on the off chance it was on the computer pre-typed she tried to delete it, I'd always have either a back up or have it in my head. And I would read, I could read for hours and my mom couldn't destroy te books 'cause they were from the library. Basically anything to take your mind off what's bothering you. Do you want to explain what's getting worse? It'd be easier to try to help if I knew. If it's too personaly though, I completely understand.
(#) rockerchick4life 2011-05-04well my girlfriend ripped my heart out and i now feel nothing and i just feel like there is no point anymore and i keep breaking down in random places and i really dont know what to do and thanks for talking to me it helps to talk to someone who understands how bad life can get ....
Author's responseI know that sometimes feeling numb can be worse than pain. I'd have to say hopeless and numb was the worse feeling I'd ever experienced. I'm sorry about your girlfriend. I remember this one time I found out my boyfriend at the time just was dating me to make this other girl jealous. I felt absolutely destroyed. I was kind of thinking 'Why the f**k would you think that's okay?' but eventually got over it. I just decied he wasn't worth the heart ache. Did you're girlfriend do something or did you two break up? I know people always say time heals all wounds. I don't think it heals them, just sort of changes them. They become more like faint scars, the skin is tougher and the pain is gone. But for heaven's sake, it can't scar if you constantly pick at the scab! basically, I'm not trying to say that everything will get better over night, or that the best way to handle it is to forget. I'm just saying you've got an entire life to live. If someone hurts you the pain is very real, but the longer you're upset, the longer you prolong the pain. I guess I just think of it that way. My theories might not be worth the time it took to type them, but I hope that you feel some sort of enlightenment. If not feel free to tell me I'm crazy and wrong about the whole thing.
(#) rockerchick4life 2011-05-05we just broke up but i have talked to her and i think things are going to be okay but my heart still aches you know... and you were right and your not crazy..
Author's response'kay. I'm glad that things seem like they'll be okay, and I hope that the aching gets better soon. Glad that I'm not crazy too. :) Hope you have a great, pain free day. Love you!
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